“Okay pretty boy. Why did you run out last week?” Santana said dragging Jared into the choir room, Puck following menacingly behind them and closing the door loudly. Jared was visibly shaking with fear as the Latina and muscled boy starred down at him.

“I can’t” the blonde boy stuttered. “I can’t tell anyone.” Santana looked at the boy and saw weakness and sadness filling his eyes. She kneeled down so she was at eye level with the sitting boy.

“Is there anyone you can tell? Anyone you feel comfortable talking to about all of this?” She asked him gently, her entire demeanor changing. Puck looked at her shocked at the sudden change into a girl her rarely saw. Jared looked down at his feet, twisting his hands around each other. He mumbled something but neither Santana or Puck were able to decipher it.

“What was that sweetie?” Santana asked gently taking the young boy’s hands in her own.

“I said Kurt” Jared mumbled out only slightly louder than before. Santana looked at him shocked but nodded.

“I guess we will just have to get Kurt to talk to you won’t we?” Jared nodded helplessly and Santana wrapped her arms around the crying young boy. She looked over his shoulder at Puck’s confused face mouthing for him to go find Kurt and bring him here. Puck nodded and headed out the choir room door. He bumped into a tall boy when he was closing the door.

“Finn come with me” Puck grabbed the taller boy’s arm and dragged him towards the senior hallway.

“Puck what are we doing? Where are we going?” Finn asked trailing after his best friend with a very confused look on his face.

“We are going to go find your stepbrother Hudson. We need to get him into the choir room.” They walked into the senior hallway and saw Kurt staring sadly at his locker door. The pale boy hadn’t had the heart to tear down his courage collage even though he and Blaine had broken up.

“Hummel! We need to talk to you!” Puck yelled making Kurt jump and slam his locker door quickly.

“I would rather not talk to you Noah.” He looked and saw his stepbrother “Or you Finn. Please just leave me alone.” He turned to walk away but was abruptly stopped when Puck stood in front of him.

“Hummel you really need to stop being a level one asshole” Puck crossed his arms across his chest. Kurt sighed loudly, raising one of his eyebrows.

“Then how can I help you Noah?” Kurt spoke harshly letting out a loud sigh.

“Kurt please just go listen to Jared. You are the only one who he will talk to. We need to know why he did what he did. To you know… you and Blaine” Kurt visibly froze when his ex’s name was mentioned. “Hummel. He is breaking down in the choir room and he is asking for you. Just please go listen to him for a second. Please?” Puck looked down at the shorter boy, hoping to see him waver just a little bit.

Kurt starred into Puck’s eyes, looking for any sign of deception. Not finding any he nodded slowly. “I am only giving him five minutes.” Puck nodded quickly and led Kurt to the choir room. They walked into the room and saw Santana hugging Jared who looked like a five year old in their mother’s grasp. She looked up when the door opened and slowly let go of the junior and stood up. She clapped Kurt’s shoulder as she passed him, leading the other boys out of the room and closing the door behind them.

“Okay Jared you have five minutes. Why did you do what you did?” Kurt said, sitting across from Jared. Jared sighed, looking up with red, puffy eyes.

“Did Blaine ever tell you about his last boyfriend?” Kurt looked at the other boy shocked. Blaine never mentioned that he ever had a boyfriend before Kurt. He shook his head no so Jared continued.

“His name was Anthony. They started dating Blaine’s sophomore year of high school, Anthony’s senior year. They dated for seven months. They were in love.” Kurt was about to ask how on earth Jared knew all of this. He knew that they didn’t have any classes together and had never seen them talking. Jared seemed to read Kurt’s mind however and answered the question. “Anthony was my brother. I had never seen him so happy. I skyped with him constantly and when he was there with Blaine, he just… he was always smiling. It was great until a party one night. My brother got drunk and wasn’t thinking clearly. He thought that someone put something in his drink because he didn’t remember much that night. He ended up sleeping with another senior, Paul.” Jared looked at Kurt and saw him trying to process what he was being told.

“Well Blaine found out from two of his friends. David and Wes I believe. They saw Paul and Anthony together and Blaine did not take being cheated on well. He broke up with Anthony the next day. The day before they went home for the summer. I got back to the house a week later and Anthony looked terrible. I couldn’t believe it. He told me what had happened, all of it. He was broken. He wouldn’t eat, he wouldn’t get out of bed unless I forced him.” Jared had never said the next part out loud and was terrified to tell Kurt about it.

“About a week after I got home from school we were having a family dinner and Anthony excused himself to use the restroom. He didn’t return for about a half an hour so I went to go check on him. I thought that maybe he just went back to sleep, but something in my gut told me differently. I walked into his room and he wasn’t there so I went into his bathroom. He was there alright… or at least what was left of him.” Jared looked at Kurt with huge, wet eyes.

“My brother killed himself. He took three-quarters of a bottle of aspirin and sliced his wrist and thighs up. We still don’t know what killed him first. The drugs or the blood loss. There was so much blood.” Jared shuttered at the memory. Kurt looked at the younger boy in shock. He couldn’t imagine going through what Jared had seemed to go through.

“I am so sorry Jared. I can’t imagine.” He reached and held Jared’s hands, “I can’t imagine what that was like…” Kurt had never heard of someone committing suicide but something about the story was bothering him.

“You said you skyped with your brother all the time. And Blaine was there some of the times?” Jared nodded confirming what Kurt had asked. “Well why didn’t he recognize you when you came here?” Jared had been expecting this. He pulled out his wallet and showed a photo of two brunette boys smiling and laughing at the camera, to Kurt.

“This is Anthony and me. I dyed my hair before coming here so that Blaine wouldn’t know who I was. We only ever talked for a few minutes at a time and the connection in my dorm was terrible so the video was always blurry. I don’t think that Blaine wanted to think about Anthony, I know my parents informed him of what happened. I don’t think Blaine wanted to make the connection, so he was glad to ignore the similarities I have to Anthony.” He sighed and looked at Kurt’s face, trying to read his reactions. Kurt stood up abruptly.

“Wait where are you going?” Jared asked standing up as well.

“I need to speak to Blaine. I need to get his side of the story” Kurt turned around towards the door before stopping. He turned around and gave Jared a quick hug, “thank you for telling me this. Thank you for trusting me with this. It means so much. I will find you later okay?” Jared nodded against Kurt’s neck and the pale boy pulled away. He patted Jared’s back before turning and heading out the door seemingly calm but inside he was boiling. He was so angry that Blaine didn’t tell him any of this himself.

Kurt stormed out of the hallway, ignoring Jared’s pleads for him to stay. He was on a mission. He had to find Blaine, he had to confront him about this Anthony guy. He walked out the front doors of the school and saw Blaine heading over towards the dumpsters, the same ones that Kurt had been getting tossed into since freshman year. His eye’s narrowed as he saw Blaine take a little bag full of green something and a glass pipe. He ran over to his ex-boyfriend who seemed to be oblivious to the other person present.

“Why didn’t you tell me about your ex Blaine?” Blaine ignored him and kept walking towards the back of the dumpsters. “Blaine Christopher Anderson don’t you dare walk away from me!” Kurt’s voice grew louder as he got closer to the shorter boy.

“Why the hell didn’t you tell me about Anthony?” Blaine looked at Kurt, a confused look covering his face.

Blaine visibly paled, “I don’t know what you are talking about Kurt” he whispered looking down at his hands and the items he was holding in them.

“I know about Anthony Blaine. I know what he did to you and what he” Kurt gulped, “what he did to himself in the end. If you had told me I would have… I don’t know been a better boyfriend? You know, tried to avoid being around other guys, if you had only let me know why you were so sensitive about it. How was I supposed to know that this would hurt you so much? Something that I didn’t even do? I get why it hurt you now that I know about what happened with him,” Kurt’s hands flailed in the air helplessly, “but how was I supposed to know that me hanging around Jared would open up past wounds? I thought you were overreacting, maybe just being the standard jealous boyfriend.” Blaine looked away, back towards the area he was heading towards when Kurt found him. He took a step away from Kurt, but froze when he heard Kurt beginning to screech.

“Damn it Blaine! I thought we were supposed to be honest with each other! You know all about my past, but I know net to nothing about yours. First the drugs and now this. I mean what the fuck Blaine. You do drugs? Since when? We dated nine months Blaine. Nine fucking months and you couldn’t tell me about having a drug problem?” Blaine quickly interrupted Kurt’s rant.

“I do not have a drug problem Hummel!” Blaine screamed even though at this point they were standing right in front of each other.

“You are coming to school high off your ass Blaine! That would imply that you have a drug problem!” Kurt yelled back just as loudly. “I could have helped you if you had told me. I could have helped you get off the drugs.” The pale boy sighed loudly “I could still help you Blaine. Let me help you” Kurt’s voice changed to a whisper as he looked Blaine in the eyes. He took a step forward and visibly flinched when Blaine backed away from him. For the first time in weeks he really looked at the curly haired boy. His eyes were bloodshot behind his glasses, which he rarely ever wore. His face was covered in scruff, his hair a curly mess. His clothes were rumpled, his shirt hanging off his body, his pants practically falling off his hips.

Blaine looked at Kurt with a confused look on his face. “How do you know about him anyway Kurt? No one here knows about him and my – our friends at Dalton promised they wouldn’t say anything…” His face transformed to one of fury. “I am going to kill David and Wes!” Blaine screamed, his hands clenching into fists. He started to turn towards the school but was stopped when Kurt placed his hand on the shorter boy’s shoulder. He seemed to relax at the touch for a moment before shoving Kurt’s hand of him.

“Don’t Blaine. They didn’t say anything. It was Jared” Kurt watched as Blaine’s face changed once again to confusing. Kurt sighed before answering the unspoken questions. “He was – is Anthony’s brother” he whispered looking down at his feet too afraid to look Blaine in the eye as he let out that very important piece of information. Blaine was a little slow on the uptake (“ A side effect of the drugs obviously” Kurt thought to himself) but once what Kurt had told him had finally sunk in, the hazel eyed boy turned towards the school and started storming away.

Kurt’s stomach sank as he watched Blaine walk away before he realized what he was going to do. The pale boy chased after his ex, yelling his name and telling him to stop.

Blaine found Jared in the junior hallway by his locker pulling out his books. He ran over and pushed the blonde boy hard, holding him pressed into the lockers.

“Why didn’t you say anything?’ Blaine hissed, his arm pressed against Jared’s neck. Jared’s eyes widened and darted around, looking for someone to help him. Unfortunately most of the students were either in class or in the cafeteria or outside for the lunch period. He let out a sigh of relief as he heard footsteps running towards them. Kurt skidded into to Jared’s line of vision, but Blaine seemed oblivious to the rest of the world.

“Blaine! What are you doing out him down” Kurt was reminded of how Karofsky would hold him against the lockers and felt his stomach twisting as he looked at the boy he loved seemingly turning into a bully. Kurt continued to walk speedily towards them. He placed his hand on Blaine’s shoulder trying to pull the shorter boy’s arm away from Jared’s neck. Blaine whipped his head around and looked behind him to see Kurt looking at him caringly and seemed to be shocked back to the real world. He turned his head slowly back to the boy whimpering against eh locker. He quickly dropped his arm and Jared crumpled to the ground gasping for breath. Kurt and Blaine looked at each other having a silent conversation with each other, having many months to perfect this skill.

“It’s your fault he is dead! You killed him!” Kurt and Blaine jumped out of their trance when Jared’s yell interrupted them.

“Jared” Kurt spoke with warning in his voice. He didn’t want to see Blaine act so terrifying again and he knew if he was pushed too far he might break again. Jared shook his head and stood up pressing his index finger into Blaine’s chest.

“You broke him, you made him want you die. You practically told Anthony to kill himself! You didn’t fucking care about him or his life even though you claimed to love him. You told him you fucking loved him then broke up with him and told him to kill himself!” By this time the classroom doors around them had opened, both students and teachers looking at the trio standing in the hallway. Kurt watched Blaine carefully, just waiting to pull him off the younger boy.

“I know” Blaine spoke so quietly even Kurt had to strain to hear him. He raised his eyebrows at this. Blaine looking so pathetic was not what he was planning on happening.

“I know it’s my fault and I have to live with the guild every fucking day alright?” Blaine’s voice grew louder are he got towards the end of his sentence.

“Then just kill yourself” Jared screamed at the boy. Kurt let a shocked “Jared” leave his lips as he looked at the blonde boy in disbelief.

“You feel guilty for what you made Anthony do. I knew it! I thought having Kurt cheat on you as well would force you to the point of no return. Make you finally off yourself!” Jared took a deep breath before continuing to speak, the other two boys too shocked to say anything. “Kurt’s too much of a prude to let me do any more than kiss him, and even that was hard, but I thought it would fucking be enough! Why aren’t you dead yet!” Jared had streams of tears falling down his face when he finished his little rant. Kurt whipped around facing the crying boy.

“Wait you made me and Blaine break up on purpose? That was your goal? The whole fucking time? You didn’t even like me? You USED me?” Kurt slid over to Jared, gripping the top of his arm tightly.

“Wait you didn’t cheat on me? You didn’t sleep with him?” Blaine whispered looking at the back of Kurt’s head.

Kurt turned his head around his body, still gripping onto Jared’s arm. “Of course not Blaine. I tried to explain that but you refused to listen to me!” Kurt said harshly before turning back to Jared. Jared looked into Kurt’s eyes viciously.

“You were just a pawn Kurt. I needed you to hurt Blaine. It’s what he deserves. I was just helping Karma move faster. It was going to happen anyway. He was going to break your heart anyway. I just sped up the process.” He ripped his arm away from Kurt’s grasp. He turned away and began walking away from the two boys. He turned back and glared before walking out the doors. Kurt turned the opposite direction and headed out the other door and Blaine quickly followed.

“Kurt. Wait up!” Kurt was walking towards his car, obviously planning on leaving the school for the day. Kurt turned and backed against his car. Blaine stepped towards his ex-boyfriend.

“So you really didn’t cheat on me?” Blaine whispered looking Kurt in the eyes. His eyes were wide and hopeful. Kurt shook his head looking fiercely down at Blaine, stepping towards him.

“Blaine I would never cheat on you. I could never cheat on you!” Kurt took Blaine’s hands in his own. They looked each other deeply in the eyes, something feeling like a magnet pulling them together. Their lips met in a very tender kiss, love and regret pushing through the kiss. Their lips moved together in perfect harmony, obviously being affected by the months of practice they had. They pulled away from each other slowly, opening their eyes at the same moment. They looked at each other for a long moment before Blaine ripped his hands away from Kurt’s hastily, his mouth gaping.

Blaine turned quickly and ran away quickly towards his car ignoring Kurt calling his name after him.