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My Missing Puzzle Piece: Chapter 37


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Story: Closed - Chapters: 50/? - Created: Dec 09, 2012 - Updated: Dec 09, 2012
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The next morning, Kurt and Blaine had breakfast with the Anderson's, who thanked Kurt repetitively for taking such great care of Blaine while he was ill, Blaine's mother had asked Kurt what he thought of sick Blaine with a smile and Kurt had laughed and said 'He's adorable' making Blaine blush and both of his parents laugh, it was no secret that any time Blaine got ill he became essentially a cuddly 5 year old. They asked the two all about their trip to Paris and the different sights they got to see; neither of them had been on Facebook to look at pictures so Kurt and Blaine promised to show them the pictures and videos on their computer.

After clearing up breakfast they all sat down in the living room to look through pictures while they waited for the Hudmel's to show up so they could exchange gifts. The boys found out that since they had been gone, Mrs. Anderson and Carole had been meeting up for lunch and going shopping together, Mr. Anderson and Burt had been hanging out and going fishing, talking politics and cars. Apparently the parents had just jumped head first into the whole 'big happy family' thing. Neither Kurt nor Blaine could be more thrilled at the fact. Kurt had brought the wedding binder so that they could all look over it and he could show their families the decisions they had made so far and the options they were still looking through at the moment.

When the Hudmel's got to the house, gifts in hand everyone exchanged hugs and moved to the living room. Finn had planted himself at Kurt's side and seemed to be reluctant to leave. Kurt was amused by the fact that now that he was in New York, Finn had become more attached to him than ever. They still talked daily and Finn would call him random hours of the night just to talk because he 'missed Kurt', he told Kurt that he had never really appreciated how great it was to have a brother in the house with him, to always have a friend to talk to and hang out with, and now that Kurt was gone he missed him every day, and while Finn loved living in Lima, but with Rachel and Kurt in New York now, it was a difficult adjustment. They were the two people he talked to regularly while in lima, his two best friends, even when he and Rachel weren't together, she was still his friend and someone he knew he could always turn to if he needed to talk. So he felt a little lost, his relationship with Puck wasn't the same anymore, Puck was probably closer to Kurt than Finn at this point. Which was the weirdest friendship in Finn's opinion ever, if he didn't know any better he would think Puck was a little in love with Kurt with the way he talked about him, the fact that he drove to New York just to make Kurt feel better during his and Blaine's breakup showed how much he cared, of all the friends, Kurt was the only one Puck trusted completely with Beth and the only one who had ever been invited with him to go visit her.

So all in all Finn felt a little left out. When Kurt got rejected for Nyada the same time he was rejected from the Actor's Studio, he'd figured they would both be staying in Lima till they could reapply the next year, he thought they'd be working at the garage together, maybe take some classes at the community college together, but no. Kurt had more talents than his voice, He still went to New York, and he still became successful. But Finn was still in Lima, wondering what he was supposed to do with his life, maybe he could ask Kurt. If anyone could help him figure out what he should do next, it'd be him.

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Sebastian sometimes had a hard time believing his life wasn't a dream. Just a year ago he was screwing his way through the guys at Scandals and mocking anyone in a committed relationship...like Kurt and Blaine for instance. Now? He'd been with Blake for 6 months. He couldn't even imagine being with anyone else at this point; the idea of going back to his old life held no temptation for him what so ever. He was happy. Sebastian Smyth was happy, in love and in a serious relationship with this incredible guy who for reasons unknown to him thought he was worth the effort it took to pursue him and break down the entire wall Sebastian had built up around his heart over the years. He never really thought something like this would happen for him, for the most part he'd always just figured something about him made him incapable of love, or of being loved.

He remembered before their first official date, when he'd finally agreed to go out with Blake after almost a full month of having Blake pester him for it, he'd been sitting in his room with Kurt while Kurt picked out something for him to wear completely freaking out the entire time, ranting about how he didn't do relationships, he didn't even do dates, he fucked and moved on to the next, that was it, that was all he was good at, good for. Eventually Kurt had sat down next to him and put a hand on his shoulder and just told Sebastian flat out "You deserve more than a quick fuck Sebastian, You deserve love and you deserve happiness, just give Blake a chance...give YOURSELF a chance." SO he'd listened. Kurt had become one of the best friends he'd ever had, sure they bickered and snarked at each other constantly and seemed to be incapable of using each other's real names in regular conversation, but it was more so done out of affection now, their bickering had gone from mean spirited so almost sibling-like. They understood each other a lot more now. It had taken a long time and a lot of deep in depth conversations, but they had officially shared stuff they hadn't shared with almost anyone else in their life. To this day, Kurt and Blake probably knew more about Sebastian than anyone, the same way Blaine and Sebastian probably knew more about Kurt than most people were aware of, even Mercedes.

The day after Kurt and Blaine had flown to Lima, they'd made double date plans with Sebastian and Blake at a Karaoke bar out in Dayton. The two couples laughed and talked over everything since the proposal, Blake bemoaned about Sebastian's refusal to engage in anything even vaguely Romantic and asked Kurt and Blaine to please help him plan their anniversary when it came because at this point he'd likely end up drinking beers at Scandals and having sex in the back of Sebastian's car. Sebastian has spluttered indignantly and insisted he was much more romantic than that and would be able to plan something incredible all on his own without Blaine and Kurt's and their mushy gushy fairytale prince charming wanna-be Disney special romance.

Everyone had laughed and Sebastian had grumbled irritatedly, crossing his arms over his chest until Kurt finally took pity on his and pulled him over to the song book by the stage to pick something to sing.

"Stop pouting Meerkat it's not attractive, we'll both sing something nice and romantic to our men and you will be able to show Blake just how sweet and romantic you can be ok?" Kurt said squeezing his shoulder encouragingly.

Sebastian smiled lightly at Kurt and nodded, uncrossing his arms and looking over Kurt's shoulder at the song list so they could each pick out a good song. Once Sebastian decided on a song and got Kurt's nod of approval. He walked up to the Mic and the crowd looked up at him, he made eye contact with a grinning and slightly confused Blake.

"Hey everyone, umm... I would like to sing a song for someone who whether they know it or not has made a huge difference in my life, they've changed me for the better...and though I may not say it as much as I probably should, I love them...with my whole heart...you saved me from myself, you believed in me when I didn't think I was worth anything so I want to sing something for you tonight to show you just how much you mean to me...normally I stay away from country music as much as humanly possible but this song is my one exception"

Sebastian felt heat rush to his cheek's, he wasn't used to big showy proclamations of love...he was never completely comfortable expressing his emotions, but Blake was worth it. He knew that.

"Every now and then I get a little lost
My strings all get tangled, my wires all get crossed
Every now and then I'm right up on the edge
Dangling my toes out over the ledge
I just thank God you're here

'Cause when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun
'Cause when I'm a firecracker comin' undone
Or when I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild-eyed and crazy
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Baby you save me

It's hard lovin' a man that's got a gypsy soul
I don't know how you do it, I'm not sure how you know
The perfect thing to say to save me from myself
You're the angel that believes in me like nobody else
And I thank God you do

'Cause when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun
When I'm a firecracker coming undone
When I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild-eyed and crazy
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Baby you save me

I know I don't tell you nearly enough
That I couldn't live one day without your love
When I'm a ship tossed around on the waves
Up on a highwire that's ready to break
When I've had just about all I can take
Baby you, baby you save me

When I'm a bullet shot out of a gun
When I'm a firecracker coming undone
When I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild-eyed and crazy
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Baby you save me..."

With tears in his eyes Blake shot out of his chair and made his way to the stage pulling Sebastian off the stage and into a deep kiss that caused the majority of the bar to erupt in cheers, loudest of which was Kurt and Blaine.

"I love you" Blake whispered once he pulled away pressing his forehead against Sebastian's trying to catch his breath.

"I love you, I know I don't say it enough, but I do. I love you." Sebastian murmured back hugging Blake to him tightly closing his eyes savoring the feel of him in his arms. Before he pulled back with a slight grin.
"So am I still the most unromantic boyfriend ever?" he asked with a smirk. Blake rolled his eyes and shook his head " Alright alright...I take it back, you are very romantic Bas" Sebastian grinned triumphantly and locked eyes with Kurt who was watching them with a thoroughly amused smile and tilted his head in thanks getting a nod in response.

Once it was Kurt's turn up at the Mic, he smiled out at the audience and said "I'm debating as to whether or not I'm willing to go on after that...thanks a lot Sebastian" he said sticking his tongue out at him in the crowd getting a loud laugh from him and a responding ''don't mention it Humbelina!" to which Kurt simply flipped him off with a quick "Bite me Meerkat" causing the crowd to laugh as well.

"So anyways...I would like to dedicate this song to my incredible fiancé Blaine." He finished with a smile meeting Blaine's grinning face back at the table.

"For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
because you loved me...."

The crowd erupted in cheers before Kurt even finished the final note. He smiled gratefully and moved off the stage towards Blaine, who welcomed him with a soft kiss and a quiet "You are all that and more to me Kurt, I'm everything I am because you love me...I love you" Making Kurt kiss him quickly once more and taking his hand in his lacing their fingers together. The rest of the night went by quickly, the two couple's lost in one another and barely paying attention to anything else.

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Noah Puckerman was...lonely. If he was honestly with himself he would admit watching the Princess and hobbit get back to their perfect relationship, had made him realize what he was missing in his own life. Even that Sebastian guy was in a serious relationship and he had been essentially the gay version of Puckzilla. But he had a serious boyfriend who was like...eternally in love with him now and shit. Puck couldn't figure out why it could happen for Sebastian but not him, the only good thing in his life right now was Beth who lived hours away with Shelby, and his friends, mostly Kurt to be honest, he was the only one he could really trust and depend on to have his back no matter what. How depressing was it when you needed permission to see your own kid? When you're best friend lived 11 hours away by car, and you felt guilty calling him to talk with how busy he was. He felt stuck. Stuck and alone in Lima with no way out. What an amazing life to live. Maybe he really was a Lima loser.

There were no women Puck would even consider dating in Lima; as a matter of fact Puck had such a hard time trusting women after Quinn, he found it difficult to entertain the idea of being in a relationship with one. His first ever relationship had been with someone who ended up being a lesbian, if that didn't make you wonder about yourself what did. Santana had been one of his best friends in middle school, once they hit high school it had seemed the obvious next step for them to hook up as the two hottest people at McKinnley. She had been his first, part of him had always assumed that it meant something more to her than it did, so finding out she was sleeping out with other people while they were together had been a hit to the gut and his self-esteem. Then there had been his massive fuck-up with Quinn. He managed to ruin the relationship with Finn and the last part of him that believed something could go right in his life. He cared about Quinn, he did, and part of him would always love her as the biological mother of his child, but in reality she was a big part of his current problem trusting people. Quinn who had told him he was a Lima loser and would never be anything but, that she would rather lie to Finn about who the father of Beth was than to acknowledge she was really his, he'd given her what she wanted when he gave Beth up to Shelby. Had he been in a better place mentally and emotionally, he never would have given up his daughter. But what could he offer her? He couldn't give her the life she deserved. So even though he loved her with everything inside him, he was still a dead beat dad where it counted. There was Lauren Zizes...who had dropped him like yesterday's trash when she got bored of him, after she cashed in on his man card of course. What was the point even trying anymore? All women ever did was make him feel as worthless as possible. What was he good for? Sex? Was that it?

He wished he could find someone like Kurt. He would even consider switching teams if he found someone who could give him the kind of love and relationship Kurt and Blaine had. He was Noah Puckerman, he didn't care if the person he ended up with was a guy or girl. He'd had threesome's before with other dudes so it's not like he was exactly freaked out by the idea of another dick being involved. He just...he wanted someone to love him. Someone who loved him and believed in him and wanted him and no one else. Was that really asking for too much? With a shake of his head Puck popped open a beer, determined to drink away this feeling of worthlessness.

Two hours later Puck was decently drunk and ended up calling Kurt. Who answered despite it being 3am. They talked for about an hour and Kurt just listened to Noah sadly, he would admit he was a little surprised when Puck mentioned he was thinking of switching teams, that he just wanted someone who loved him the way he loved Blaine and didn't care if he had a dick. Kurt tried to soothe him telling him it would happen for him when the time was right and he just had to be patient, but Puck had just broken down crying telling Kurt he didn't think it was ever going to happen and he was just so tired of being alone all the time. Eventually Kurt had pulled on his shoes and woken Blaine up to tell him he needed to go talk check on Puck because something was wrong with him and he was worried about how much he'd been drinking. Blaine nodded and kissed Kurt asked if he wanted him to come along and when Kurt shook his head and just told him to go back to sleep he simply told Kurt to call him if he needed him and to text him to let him know if everything was ok.

Kurt drove over to Puck's house and let himself in with the key under the mat. He found Puck curled up in a ball on his bed crying and just sighed and pulled the bigger man into his arms. Puck immediately cuddled into him, clutching at Kurt desperately. Choking out sad "I'm sorry" 's to which Kurt just shushed him and rocked him slowly telling him it was alright and he was here now it was going to be ok. It took a half hour of cuddling Puck to get him to calm down. He finally got him to lie down with his head on Kurt's shoulder while Kurt just talked to him. The more Kurt thought about it, the more he considered the idea of Puck maybe going to Scandals with them one night to talk to some guys and see how things went, if he met anyone he'd even consider or felt attracted to. Look at Santana, she'd been with guys the majority of her life and she was with Brittany now, Brittany herself was bisexual, so why not Puck? If not, at least it would let Puck know whether or not he was really straight and give him some answers.

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The following night Kurt had sobered up Puck who had been more than a little embarrassed at his breakdown and after an hour of convincing talked him into going with the two couples to Scandals. If anything Sebastian's previous experience picking people up would probably help Puck, and if he wasn't comfortable, well then it could simply be a night out with friends, and that was fine too. Just some drinks, dancing and maybe talking to a couple guys and keeping an open mind.

Puck let Kurt pick out his clothes and he drove with Kurt and Blaine to the club, planning on meeting Sebastian and Blake there. Walking in, it was a surprisingly busy night and Puck could feel his palms start to sweat. Kurt steered him straight to the bar and ordered him a beer telling him one wouldn't hurt if just to calm him down. Blaine was attempting to give Puck an encouraging pep talk while Blake nodding alone next to him throwing in his own advice here and there. Sebastian was just rolling his eyes next to them checking out the different people in the club taking note of each person who would probably be interested in Puck should he find them attractive. Had he been single he would have probably offered himself off as a tester gay for the night, but alas, he was not. He took note of the different guys that had glanced in Puck's direction since they'd walked in so he could push him in their general direction. The guys had agreed to each have one dance with Puck to make him more approachable to the other guys. Kurt went first since he was the one Puck was obviously most comfortable with, and Blaine swallowed his discomfort at watching Kurt and Puck dance closely pressed together, he knew Kurt would have to do the same thing with him when he danced with Puck himself, but it just rubbed him the wrong way, part of him had a feeling for a while now that Puck might have a little more than friendship feelings for Kurt, but he knew Puck respected their relationship and would never do anything to jeopardize Blaine's relationship with Kurt, but he couldn't help but feel a little uncomfortable with it.

After dancing with Kurt, Blaine and Blake, Sebastian stepped up to show them how it was really done. He'd pulled Puck up against his front and grinded into him from behind causing Puck to freeze for a moment before he took a quick look at Blake to make sure it was alright, Blake was rolling his eyes and shaking his head at them with a laugh motioning for Puck to 'go ahead'. So they danced and caught the eye of more than one guy on the dance floor who had taken to watching and eventually two guys walked up to ask them both for a dance, Sebastian brushed them off letting them know he was with someone and had special permission to dance with his friend, but Puck was free as a bird for a dance and he shoved Puck towards the hotter of the two and walked back to Blake with a grin on his face, wrapping and arm around his waist and dropping a kiss to his cheek and grinning when Blake called him a jackass.

"You love me" He said with a grin.

"You just can't help yourself can you? Have to make a spectacle. Was your little performance supposed to make me jealous? Is so it didn't work sorry to say"

"Awww come on babe...admit it, you got jealous...just a little bit..."

"Absolutely not, I refuse to stroke your already over inflated ego Bas." Blake said squirming out of his hold and sitting next to Blaine instead.

"Don't be mad...you know I only wanted to help him out. I was being a good friend" He said with a pout trying to pull Blake back to him, grinning triumphantly when Blake allowed it.

"You were being a show off, and you know it" He said snuggling into Sebastian's arms.

"You still love me though." He whispered swooping down to press a kiss into his neck.

He felt Blake sigh. "Yes...I still love you. I think you are a pain in the ass...but I do love you" he whispered tilting Sebastian's face up to kiss him. "Never forget though Bas...you are mine." He said softly looking him in the eyes, Sebastian nodded and kissed him again "Yours."

Puck had a surprisingly good night. He danced with a lot of attractive guys and actually got a few numbers. He was more than a little sure now that he was as least bisexual, not just 'Kurtsexual'. He'd been attracted to at least three of the guys he'd danced with and he would admit he'd been a little turned on by the way Sebastian had danced with him, not that he'd tell him that.

That night, Puck went to bed with a smile and a new positive outlook on his life. Kurt had been right; things were going to be ok. Kurt and Blaine had gone to bed and Kurt had spent a good portion of the night showing Blaine just how much he loved him and only him, he wasn't blind or oblivious, he saw the looks Blaine had shot Puck from across the bar and he didn't have any problem proving to Blaine... as many times it took as a matter of fact...that he was his one and only forever.

Blake had made love to Sebastian that night, it wasn't often that Sebastian gave up control and let him slow things down and take his time tenderly loving Sebastian with his body, mostly just because each time they did, Sebastian got emotional and he didn't like feeling vulnerable. They'd always fall asleep wrapped up together with Sebastian trembling against Blake's chest squeezing his eyes shut tightly with Blake holding him close whispering "It's okay Bas...it's okay...I love you...I'm here baby". Blake knew Sebastian had a hard time letting himself be vulnerable, of exposing himself emotionally, so he knew how special it was when he did. Sebastian was the love of his life, he knew that, he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life loving him and showing him just how incredible he really was. No matter how long it took he would find a way to prove to Sebastian he was worthy of love, that he wanted to be with him forever.

Sebastian himself was trying hard to keep himself under control. He both loved and hated moments like this. He loved feeling so close to Blake, loved the overwhelming feeling of being adored and wanted and just...so...LOVED...completely and totally. At the same time though he hated it, hated feeling like he couldn't control himself, hated giving someone else the power to break him so completely. Now that Blake was in his life, if he left, Sebastian would crumble. As far as he was concerned, this was it for him, he'd never loved anyone before, and he'd never thought he COULD or WOULD find someone that he not only loved but loved him back, and that? Was absolutely terrifying.

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