Blaine's POV

„Okay, guys, see you on Monday", I say as I jump off the table I'd performed on. As I pack my bag, Jeff approaches me. His usually neat looking blonde hair is now messy and he looks like he's going to pass out from exhaustion. „Blaine, this song's amazing! We'll kill it!"

I laugh. „Well, if it doesn't kill you, Jeff!" He smiles and hesitates before talking again.

„Say, Blaine, what's up with you and Sebastian? The both of you seem kinda … I don't know, it's just weird. I mean, I'm used to him bitching at you once in a while but now you snap back. Did something happen?"

I sigh.

He is right.

I didn't think people would notice it that quickly but these guys are like my brothers, after all. After Kurt and I spent a lot of time together, Sebastian turned into a jealous jerk. As I don't reply directly, Jeff blushes. „I mean, you don't need to tell me if you don't want to – I just thought that, y'know"

„No, it's alright! I just thought about it... Yeah, we're sort of fighting but don't worry about it" „Okay. Just glad to hear that. But if you wanna talk to someone – I'm here for you." I smile, grateful to have someone who cares. He turns to leave and almost crashes into another guy who just entered the room.

Wait.

It's not just another guy.

Kurt! My heart skips a beat -oddly enough. He looks as beautiful as ever, wearing a leather jacket, skinny jeans and a white shirt. Kurt mumbles something under his breath. He probably apologized since Jeff just nods and walks away.

„Kurt", I whisper softly.

But then I remember.

I bailed on him.

I let him down.

He hates me.

And he has every right to do so.

Once again, my heart aches but this time it hurts more. I want to go over and hug him, hold him, but it's impossible.

Why do I want to do that anyway? We know each other for a week or so. There may be some sort of connection I feel but it's probably not real, just what I want to feel. How could I feel more for someone I barely know than for someone I've been since forever? I cannot keep this up. I have to sever all contact with him. I promised Sebastian and Kurt will be better off this way.

„Blaine", he says, steady. Since when does my name sound that magical? „What are you doing here?", I manage to ask.

I have to sever all contact with him.

„ I'm here to confront you", Kurt says simply. „I waited, Blaine. If you don't want to be friends with me, fine, but I thought you were better than just let someone down. You should at least tell me the reason for this. I deserve more than that." I wonder if he knows that despite his try to keep his voice steady, it shook various times.

I breathe deeply.

He's right.

I hurt him so much.

I lead him on, I really did.

Not on purpose but does that matter?

"I wanted to come, Kurt, but I couldn't. Sebastian wouldn't let me. I'm sorry" while saying the words I notice how ridiculous they sound. Kurt looks started for a moment -until he bursts in small bubbles of laughter. I feel ashamed now and I wish I had made up some stupid reason but the truth is out.

"Wow, I never took you for that weak. So you couldn't just tell me in one freaking text that your boyfriend wouldn't let you sing a stupid duet with me?" He shakes his head, disbelievingly. "You know, I thought you liked me." I do. "I thought you were different." I am. "But you aren't. And I don't know if I just expected too much or if you really are the things I thought you were-deep down- but, never mind."

Again he takes a deep breath. "Thank you for being honest with me." he says politely and leaves before he can be left.

I don't call his name.

I don't ask him to forgive me for ignoring him.

I let him go.