I'm Sorry I Wasn't There
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I'm Sorry I Wasn't There: Chapter 10


E - Words: 1,885 - Last Updated: Nov 18, 2013
Story: Closed - Chapters: 11/? - Created: Nov 08, 2013 - Updated: Nov 08, 2013
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A/N: Moooore jealousy, yay! I actually quite liked this chapter, and Ive already got a few things planned out already for our sweet little family, so stay tuned! ;)

PoV Blaine:

Kurt telling me about the not eating thing somehow broke my heart. How could someone forget to eat? Maybe leaving him along with Elijah wasnt the right choice. Although he kept telling me he could manage it, it still made me feel bad. 

Also I really didnt understand why Kurt wouldnt want me to see him shirtless. I knew that hed still look gorgeous no matter what, but he still insisted we should wait with sex until he was more comfortable. Of course I told him I was okay with that...even though I wouldve been also okay if he jumped me now. Right now actually. Ugh, this was pure torture, really. I mean, sure, Ive still got my right hand to...but no. Not with Kurt around and I wasnt the type for that either way.

Usually I wouldve been out in a club already; looking for a random attractive guy I could take home and jump him instead. But I didnt do that anymore. I would never do that again. Kurt was the only one Id ever do it with because I love him, and god! What am I thinking about? Kurt was laying next to me in my bed while I kept thinking about sex. It made sense though, he was lying here and of course that would lead to something more but-

"Blaine?" Kurt yawned softly, turning around to look up at me. "W-Whats wrong? Cant sleep?" He asked, reaching up to stroke my cheek lovingly.

"Its fine, just thinking a little." I shrugged, continuing to glance up at the ceiling.

"About what?" Kurt asked, scooting closer to me and resting his head on my shoulder, stroking my chest with his thumb gently.

"You." I answered simply, sighing as I turned my head to look at him. Gosh. He looked so beautiful like this. Slightly messed up hair, rosy cheeks and his eyes shining brightly while he wore one of his cutest smiles.

"Me?" He asked with a small chuckle, blushing lightly. "What have you been thinking about?" Oh no. I couldnt tell him or hed leave right away and sleep in his own bed.

"Why wont you just let me see you, Kurt? You dont need to be ashamed or anything." Sighing I took his hand in my own, squeezing it tightly.

Kurt bit his lip. "I just dont feel comfortable, alright? I thought we were over that already and you were okay with waiting?" He sighed slightly annoyed as he sat up and turned his back to me.

"Kurt, honey, please. Dont do this now." I sighed, rubbing a hand over my face, groaning lightly in frustration when he didnt reply. "Dont give me this stupid silent treatment."

"Im not giving you anything." He said, and I couldnt help but laugh quietly.

"Yeah, I know that." I grinned, biting my lip to stop from laughing as he turned around to glare at me. "Sorry," I said quickly, "I dont mind waiting, I really dont but I just- I want you to trust me."

"I do trust you, Blaine. Its just- god, you dont get anyway it." He shook his head and grabbed his blanket, standing up from the bed.

"Hey, no." I said, stopping him from leaving the room. "Stay, please. Of course I understand you, Im not stupid, so please." I added, pressing a soft kiss to his cheek.

"Im sorry," Kurt suddenly said, resting his forehead on my shoulder as he continued, "I know its been over a year for both of us but...look, Ill get Rachel to watch Elijah again next week and-"

"Kurt, its fine. Really, take your time and tell me when youre ready." I reassured him, pulling him back down, spooning him and kissing his neck gently. "Weve got time."

Kurt smiled and nodded his head before he drifted back off to sleep. I sighed as I watched him, closing my eyes as I whispered, "I love you."

***

PoV Kurt:

I woke up the door bell ringing; stretching my arms out as I noticed Blaines side of the bed was already empty. Slowly I got out up and rubbed my eyes sleepily as I made my way out into the hall, smiling as I heard Rachels voice.

"And Id say you- Kurt! God, your son is so adorable and he almost didnt cry, he really is a cutie." Rachel beamed as she made her way past Blaine and walked over to hug me. "Sorry, did we wake you? Finn! I told you we should come later!" She groaned.

"No, no, its fine. What time is it anyway?" I asked, turning around to look up at the clock.

"Its shortly after 10, honey, good morning to you too." Blaine grinned as he kissed my forehead and rocked Elijah in his arm.

"Baby boy," I smiled, reaching out and taking him from Blaine, ruffling his little hair, "I missed you, sweetie."

Thinking that hed only been away for half a day and over the night, I wondered how it would be like when he grew up. Smiling softly I asked Finn and Rachel to come inside for a moment, Blaine already getting coffee for everyone.

"So you said he almost didnt cry?" I asked, turning to look up at Finn before facing Rachel.

"Oh, well, he seems to not like my perfume. You know that time when Finn had to hold him the entire time because he was always crying on my arm? Yes...so I figured out it was my perfume that bothered him." She shrugged, while Finn reached out to take her hand.

"I shouldve told you that. Babies are really picky when it comes to things like that. Even Blaine had to change his aftershave because Elijah didnt like it, right?" I chuckled and looked up at Blaine who just nodded sadly.

"Yeah, Im still very upset, it was my favourite." He pouted playfully and I reached my hand up to cup his cheek, leaning in to press a kiss to his pout. When I pulled away I earned an Aww from Rachel.

"I probably did mention how cute I think both of you are, right?" She asked, Finn nudging her side, pointing at her hand. "Oh right! We need to tell you something..." She trailed off and Finn sighed.

"Dont be so mysterious, just tell them." He sighed, and I already guessed what it was.

"Finn proposed! Were getting married!" She beamed, kissing Finns cheek quickly.

I couldnt help but sigh at first before I kissed her cheek and hugged Finn. "And this time its for real?" I asked, raising my eyebrows at both of them. Theyd gotten engaged before the big break up and now they did it again? Ugh, I hoped it worked out this time.

"Yes, and actually I thought youd be more surprised." She said, frowning a little just as Blaine walked in with a tray, placing it onto the small table in front of the couch.

"Here, dear," He hold out a cup to me, taking Elijah from me. I smiled and sipped on my coffee. "Did I miss something?" Blaine asked quickly, sitting down on the armrest of the couch as he looked at Rachels confused face.

"I just told Kurt that Finn and I got engaged but it seems to not really bother him," Rachel pointed out, crossing her arms over her chest.

"Engaged? Congrats you two, thats amazing!" Blaine smiled, nudging my side lightly. "Whats wrong, arent you happy for them?" He asked.

"Look, of course Im happy but just wait two or three weeks and something will mess up your plans, Im sure." I shrugged, because I just knew it would be like that. Rachel would get too busy on Broadway and Finn would go back to Ohio to help dad with everything, I just knew it wouldnt work out.

"You dont look happy, and actually I think youre just jealous because its not you who got engaged. You were so sure youd get engaged before me, werent you?" She asked.

"Jealous? Why would I be jealous? I think its rather you. Since I told you I was pregnant with Elijah you kept trying to top it. Like, seriously. First you told me I should have an abortion, and then suddenly youre supporting me. Then you kept telling everyone about your Broadway audition and now youre getting engaged." I blurted out. "I dont need any of that crap when I have the most perfect boyfriend and a son. And Finn getting an expensive ring for you and proposing isnt something new. Im sorry, Finn, I didnt want to drag you into this, but its true. You got engaged once and it didnt work out, and Im not fucking jealous." I raised my voice a little before I got up and walked straight into my room, shutting the door rather loudly, ignoring Blaine calling after me.

***

PoV Blaine:

Listening to Kurt talking like that to his best friend was weird. But he was right, Rachel seemed to be a little jealous of our son and that would be the reason she had him over because she just loved babies.

"Im sorry, I didnt see that coming and-"

"Dont apologize, we better go now. Its not your fault." Finn said quickly, patting Blaines back and kissing Elijahs cheek before he pulled Rachel up. I tried to ignore the whispers coming from Rachel as they walked over to the door and left.

I made my way to Kurts room, knocking lightly. "Baby?" I asked softly, opening the door a gap. "Are you okay?" I asked, sighing a little as I saw him standing at the window. I could practically hear him gritting his teeth even if I didnt see his face.

"Im fine." He mumbled, his arms crossed over his chest as I walked over to him and turned him to face me.

"No youre not. What happened with you in there? Im not saying that you werent right, but...wow." I trailed off, shrugging lightly, glancing down at Elijah who was grinning up at Kurt.

"It just got annoying. For real, I mean...I love both of them and I want the best for them as a couple, but I couldnt hold back." He said quietly, stroking Elijahs cheek.

"Im not judging or anything, but maybe youre both a little jealous." I chuckled softly.

"Im not jealous!" He protested.

"Sure youre not. Look, if you want to get to engaged so badly, then Im gonna go and buy a real nice ring and propose to you right away, because I know I love." I smiled and kissed his lips quickly. "Why dont you just look at it from the bright side? I bet their engagement wasnt as amazing as mine is going to be, alright?" I tried to cheer him up.

Kurt laughed softly and ducked his head. "Im sorry, I know I overreacted. And maybe youre right. I thought Id be getting married before her, but its okay." He sighed, smiling up at me again. "Thank you, Im glad that I have you."

"No problem." I shrugged lightly. "Now how about, you, me and this little peanut get dressed up and go take a walk in Central Park, hm? Ill text my driver and hell pick us up and drive us." I smiled and Kurt nodded.

"Sounds perfect." He said and started getting dressed up.


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