‘Uh hey’ Blaine just stood there.

‘Are you okay?’ Kurt asked, frowning, ‘You look like you’ve seen a ghost.’

‘Something like that’ Blaine mumbled, ‘Hey! Why don’t we go out to the movies? Let’s go now’ Blaine grabbed Kurt’s arm and tried to pull him out of the kitchen.

‘Woahhh slow down there, let’s just stay in’ Kurt pulled Blaine back into his arms, ‘Easier to snuggle’

Rachel peered her head around the door and said, ‘movie’s about to start, bring the popcorn’ before disappearing.

Kurt walked over to the microwave and started the popcorn.

‘Uh Kurt, before we watch the movie, I need to talk to you’

‘Not this again, we can make out later’ Kurt giggled, turning round to face Blaine.

‘No seriously, just promise me you won’t jump to conclusions? Okay you have to promise? Kurt, promise’ Blaine walked quickly over to where Kurt was standing and took his hands.

‘Blaine what’s going on?’

‘B, where’s the popcorn?’ Sebastian sauntered into the kitchen and stopped in his tracks when he saw Blaine holding some guy’s hands.

‘Blaine, who is this?’ Kurt asked, turning to look at Sebastian. Sebastian was wearning tight black trousers and a baggy jumper, it looked vintage. He had this attitude about him, before even really saying anything, Kurt didn’t like this guy.

‘I’m Sebastian, Blaine and i-

‘We used to go to school together’ Blaine said, hoping against all odds that Sebastian would drop it.

‘Oh, you went to Dalton with Blaine?’ Kurt went to shake Kurt’s hand, and Sebastian just smiled.

‘Well yeah, we were in the same Biology class. You’re quite good with anatomy aren’t you B?’ Sebastian nodded towards Blaine and let go of Kurt’s hands. Blaine cringed.

‘At least you were when we were together.’

‘Wait.. Blaine’ Kurt turned around to face Blaine, and Blaine’s heart nearly broke at the expression on Kurt’s face,’ You two used to date?’

‘Oh we did more than date’ Sebastian said, walking over to the microwave which just beeped, taking out the popcorn and heading to the lounge,’ but Blaine can tell you the dirty details’ Sebastian winked, he fucking winked and Blaine was wondering if double-homicide was something he could get away with.

‘I think I’m going to go, suddenly not in the mood for a movie marathon’ Kurt picked up his bag and walked out of the house.

Blaine ran after him, ‘Kurt wait, I told you not to jump to conclu-‘

‘Wh— why didn’t you tell me about him?’ Kurt was obviously upset, Blaine could Kurt always tripped over his words when he was angry about something.

‘He’s nothing. He’s not important, it’s not a big deal Kurt, I promise’

‘I didn’t know you’d had boyfriends before, I thought this was special’ Kurt gestured between the both of them before dropping his arms in defeat.

‘Kurt,’ Blaine sighed’ this is special. It’s so special. We broke up months ago, I don’t even speak to him anymore.’

‘How long were you together?’ Kurt crossed his arms against his chest, great he was getting angry.

‘I don’t know- I can’t reall-‘

‘How long were you together Blaine?’ Kurt repeated the question, talking to Blaine as if he had just turned five.

‘About 6 months.’ Blaine replied.

‘6 months. 6 months’ Kurt muttered.

‘Kurt, I didn’t even invite him round, Rachel did. I don’t want to see him, I can’t stand him really. Dating him was one of the stupidest things I’ve ever done. He was my first boyfriend, so I was pretty naive, I didn’t really know what I wanted, it’s like that you know?’

‘Yeah I must do. I mean I must be really naive if you’re my first boyfriend, Blaine’ Kurt turned around and started walking towards his car,’ Oh wait should I call you B now? Or is that just a special name he gets to call you?’

‘Kurt don’t-‘

‘Don’t tell me how to feel about this Blaine’ Kurt turned around and walked right up to Blaine, he was only a couple of inches away from him now,

‘You know this is a big deal for me! I don’t let people in, I don’t.. I don’t do this. I trusted you. I was so stupid. You’ve spoken to me for hours about Dalton and you never thought to mention him?. And before you give me the whole, ‘he’s an ex it doesn’t matter’. You’re right I don’t care you’ve dated other people, fine whatever. I’m more upset about the fact you didn’t tell me, Blaine. Because if he didn’t matter to you, if he was just some arsehole you didn’t know how to dump or something, you would of fucking told me’ Kurt wiped at his eyes with frustration, he was getting sick and tired of crying in front of Blaine.

‘Kurt I’m sorry, just let me explain’ Blaine was pleading now, he didn’t want to fuck this up.

‘No, you had time to explain. You’ve had 2 weeks to explain, and you didn’t.’ Kurt opened the drivers door and climbed in.

‘Kurt don’t go’ Blaine begged, Kurt would undersand if he would just give him a minute to explain.

‘I have to. I can’t do this right now.’ Blaine couldn’t be sure, but he could’ve sworn he heard Kurt mumbled, ’I can’t believe I let myself think you cared about me.’ before shutting the door.

Kurt reversed out of the drive and didn’t look back.

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Blaine walked into the lounge, and found Rachel and Sebastian sitting on the sofa watching ‘White Christmas’ of all films.

‘Get out’.

‘What?’ Sebastian stopped looking at the film, as Rachel reached for the controller to pause it.

‘I said ‘get out’, Sebastian’ Sebastian just sat there with this stupid grin on his face, ‘Get out!’

‘oh no, did I cause a problem for you and your boyfriend?’ Sebastian asked, ‘I’m ever so sorry’.

‘I don’t want to hear it, and I don’t want to see you, just leave’ Blaine was starting to shout now, and Rachel hadn’t seen him like this in a long time,

‘Sebastian get the fuck out of my house, or I swear to god I will shove those ridiculous boat shoes right down your throat’

Sebastian picked up his bag, and headed towards the door, he turned, that smug smile still on his face.

‘It was nice seeing you B, I’m sure we’ll see each other again soon’

Once Blaine had heard the door shut, he turned to his sister, ‘I don’t know what you wanted to happen, but I’m pretty sure Kurt just broke up with me’

Rachel looked shocked, to be honest she just wanted to annoy Blaine, she didn’t think it would go this far, ‘Kurt left, and he thinks I still like Sebastian or something, and it’s all because of you, Rach. Kurt was the only person who was nice to me when I started at McKinley, he was there for me, whilst you were too busy practicing solos or making out with Finn. I was petrified Rachel, it was like heading back to the front line or something’ Blaine ran his hands through his hair in frustration, ‘and now you’ve gone and fucked things up with the only person I care about. He means so much to me Rachel, and if doesn’t forgive me,’ Blaine knew he was going to cry, and he didn’t want to give Rachel the satisfaction, ‘If he doesn’t forgive me, I don’t know if I can forgive you.’

Blaine didn’t wait to hear Rachel’s excuses, he just walked upstairs and went into his room slamming the door behind him. He walked over to the cabinet, pulling out a pack of twenty, and lighting up. He inhaled once before he broke down in tears. Kurt was all he had, and now he thought that he didn’t care, that he didn’t care enough about Kurt to be honest with him;. That wasn’t it at all.

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Sebastian and Blaine had dated for about 8 months, and there whole relationship was decorated with arguments, silent treatments and snide comments. Sebastian was an arsehole, Blaine knew that, but Sebastian was also the first boy to ever really pay attention to Blaine, and Blaine wasn’t used to that.

Growing up in a house with Rachel Berry meant that you had to get used to being in second place, because if you were in first place you wouldn’t be there for long.

So whenever Sebastian did something that made Blaine want to punch him in the face, he would forgive him because well, without Sebastian he would be alone.

However, when Blaine walked into senior commons and saw Sebastian getting a blowjob from George, Blaine had enough and their relationship was over. Blaine didn’t want to tell Kurt about Sebastian because he was embarrassed. The first guy who had shown any interest in Blaine, got bored and cheated on him. He was over Sebastian, to be honest Blaine questioned if he ever really liked Sebastian, however he still wasn’t over the pain he felt after being put in second place again. He was always the second choice, and he didn’t want to tell Kurt because what if Kurt realised that Blaine wasn’t the guy he wanted to be with?

Blaine chain smoked for the entire evening, and only left his room to drive to the supermarket to buy more cigarettes. He didn’t know if he should try and talk to Kurt, but he didn’t want to leave things as they were, so he sat in the car park of the supermarket and dialed Kurt’s number.

It didn’t suprise him when Kurt didn’t pick up, so he left a message.

‘Uh, hey. I know you probably don’t want to talk to me, and I understand, but just so you know, erm, I kicked Sebastian out. I think Rachel invited him around to try and fuck things up between us, and well it worked’ Blaine didn’t know how to explain things to Kurt, he didn’t know where to start, ‘I know that you probably hate me now and want to punch me or something, but could we meet at the Lima Bean tomorrow? At 12? I’ll get you a coffee, and you can punch me in the face if you want? I deserve it… I just want a chance to explain things Kurt and I know I probably don’t deserve it, but I- ‘Blaines voice broke with emotion, ‘I don’t want to lose you. I’m not running away Kurt, so please.. please don’t leave me.’ Blaine coughed, trying to gain control of his emotions, ’Can you text me to know if you’re coming? I’ll be there anyway. Erm, yeah. I really care about you Kurt, so just, please don’t give up on me?’ Blaine hung up and lit his 21st cigarette of the night and drove home.

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‘Blaine, is that you?’ Rachel asked, as she heard the front door shut.

‘Where’s mum and dad?’ Blaine asked, trying to avoid the conversation he knew Rachel would want to have.

‘Er, they’re at Uncle James” Rachel said walking down the stairs and stopping in front of Blaine, ‘I’m so sorry’

‘Rachel, I-‘

‘Let me finish’ She smiled sadly, and continued, ‘I was just… I don’t want you two to break up because what would I do then? and I miss Kurt, you know? I haven’t seen him these last two weeks and I don’t know, I was jealous or something and I’m sorry. I was stupid, and inviting Sebastian round was just really really bitchy of me. Forgive me?’

‘I can’t right now Rach’ Blaine walked past her up the stairs, ‘but thanks for the apology’

Rachel nodded, ‘It’s the least I could do.’

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Blaine got the Lima Bean early, and ordered two coffees and sat at the back of the cafe. It got to 12:30, and Blaine was starting to realise that Kurt wasn’t going to show up. He had ordered another two coffees, because the ones he’d bought had gone cold and he decided he was going to wait.Eventually, Kurt would go to the Lima Bean and Blaine would be there.

Blaine sat back down and was playing with the lid of his coffee, when the chair opposite was pulled out and Kurt sat down. ’You came’ Blaine smiled and reached out to take Kurt’s hand. Kurt quickly pulled away, and took his jacket off.

‘I got you a coffee’ Blaine pushed the cup over towards Kurt and just waited.

‘Well?’ Kurt asked, ‘You wanted to explain’

Kurt looked tired, and he looked really pissed off. And Blaine could feel Kurt putting up those barriers again, one by one.

Blaine started by telling Kurt about how he and Sebastian had got together, and how Sebastian never really treated him right, and ended with telling him the story of how he’d walked in on Sebastian and George. Kurt remained silent, and didn’t interrupt to ask questions or comment on anything.

‘So, when I walked in and saw Sebastian last night, I wasn’t happy. I never wanted to see him again, he really hurt me’

‘Broken hearted?’ Kurt asked, his voice laced with bitterness.

‘No, not that. It’s just being cheated on does things to your self-esteem’ Kurt took a sip of his coffee and finally looked at Blaine.

‘So that’s why you didn’t tell me?’

‘I was embarassed, and I was kind of scared’ Blaine admitted.

‘Scared? Of what exactly? Kurt asked.

‘I don’t know, that you’d hear that and realise that maybe I wasn’t the best choice. You’d realise you could do better’

‘You’re an idiot.’ Blaine looked down, he was waiting for Kurt to have a go at him, ‘You’re such an idiot’ Kurt laughed.

Blaine looked up, and he was relieved to see Kurt smiling once again.

‘I thought we established that a while ago’ Blaine replied.

‘Look, I’m sorry Blaine’ Kurt sighed, and took Blaine’s hand in his, ‘I just, I thought that maybe you weren’t over him or something, and I sort of jumped to conclusions, which you asked me not to, and I see why now. It’s just, this is all new to me, and I’m waiting for you to turn around and tell me this has all been a joke, and that you’d never date someone like me, and run off. And when I saw Sebastian it was like that nightmare was playing out right in front of my eyes’

‘I know, I’m so sorry Kurt’ Blaine’s voice was filled with emotion, and Kurt believed him.

‘It’s okay.’ Kurt smiled.

‘Really?’ Blaine questioned, ‘I’m just so sorry Kurt, I just, fuck, I care about you so much, I don’t think you realise, and I don’t want you to shut me out, ask me anything and I’ll tell you. I’ll never hide anything from you agan Kurt. I promise, I jus-‘

‘Blaine’ Kurt giggled, ‘It’s alright. Calm down.’

Kurt stood up and put his jacket on and started walking out of the Lima Bean, he stopped when he realise Blaine wasn’t coming with him, ’You going to come with me, or do I have to watch a movie at mine all on my own?’ Kurt asked, holding his hand out for Blaine.

Blaine nearly fell over in the rush to hold Kurt’s hand, and when they were by the car Kurt pulled him in close, and kissed him lightly on the lips.

‘Can I ask you something?’

‘Of course’ Blaine replied.

‘Could I maybe hit Sebastian in the face with a brick? Just once?’ Kurt asked.

Blaine burst out laughing, ‘Please, go ahead.’ Kurt started laughing too, ‘I’m sorry’ Kurt unlocked his car, ‘He’s just such a tool.’

‘Hey, Kurt can I ask you something?’

‘Sure’

‘Can we be boyfriends again?’

‘Wait, we stopped being boyfriends’ Kurt leaned over and brushed Blaine’s curls behind his ears, ‘news to me’

‘You’re so amazing’ Blaine wrapped his arms around Kurt.

‘Ah I know, it’s actually sort of a burden sometimes’

Kurt held Blaine just a bit tighter. He was so afraid last night that it was all over, that Blaine had changed his mind, that being able to hold Blaine again made Kurt unbelievably happy.

‘Can we never argue again, like ever?’ Kurt asked.

‘Deal’

‘I’ve missed your dorky face’ Blaine pulled back from the embrace, and pretend to cry dramatically.

Blaine sobbed, ‘Kurt, that is- wow that’s the nicest thing anyone’s ever said to me’ before composing himself and lightly shoving Kurt on the shoulder.

‘Come on, let’s go to mine. I’ll make us some hot chocolate and we can snuggle’.

‘Okay that might actually be the best thing I’ve ever heard’