The following morning Blaine woke up early to get started on his new mission to be a better husband the husband Kurt deserved, first step was calling in sick to work. Next he moved into the kitchen and started making what he knew was Kurt's guilty pleasure breakfast that they'd had the morning after they got married, stuffed french toast with fresh strawberries. He slipped out of the apartment to pick up a bag of Kurt's favorite flavored coffee and a new bouquet of roses to fill up another vase and switch it out with the older one since a couple of the flowers had begun to wilt slightly and he wanted everything perfect. He set the table and served up the food, arranging the strawberries in a heart the same way they'd had it after their wedding night, and brewed a fresh pot of coffee. The second he heard movement in the bedroom he went ahead and poured a cup of hot coffee in Kurt's favorite mug and added a little bit sugar, a ball of anxiety formed in his stomach when the bedroom door opened and a dejected Kurt walked out, hair in disarray, still in his husband's pajama's with sleepy swollen red rimmed eyes and when he entered the kitchen he halted to a stop staring at the set table before his eyes found Blaine.

Blaine watched as Kurt's defenses came up, his eyes hardened slightly, he stood up straight and crossed his arms over his chest. It killed Blaine that at least subconsciously Kurt was trying to protect himself from him, he gave Kurt a sad smile and held out the cup of coffee to him. Kurt stared at him for a moment, not reaching out for the cup before he said "what the hell is all this? what are you even doing here? shouldn't you be at work?". Blaine shook his head and responded with a quiet "I called in sick, I need to be here with you...we really need to talk and I really need to apologize for everything, Kurt I'm so so sorry...there aren't even enough words to tell you how sorry I am, I wouldn't blame you if you hated me. You deserve so much more than what you've been getting from me...I love you so much Kurt, I swear I'm going to make it all up to you"

Kurt sighed heavily running a hand over his face reaching out for the cup of coffee, he took a sip and his lips quirked slightly in surprise when he realized the kind of coffee it was. He raised an eyebrow at Blaine and shook his head "So how was this supposed to work? Let me guess, I was supposed to come out here and just forget everything, completely forgive you just because you made me my favorite coffee and french toast? Do you seriously think any of this is going to make me feel better right now Blaine?" his voice was sad and slightly disbelieving, when he'd woken up this morning he'd laid in bed thinking for while, thinking about the last 8 months, about each disappointment, each night spent alone in tears, last night was the last straw for him. He couldn't do this anymore, he was tired of allowing himself to hope things would be better...different if he just kept trying, as much as he loved Blaine? He didn't like the man he'd become.

Blaine cringed slightly and tried taking a step toward Kurt, hurt when he stepped back keeping a distance between them. "No that's not...I mean...I don't expect you to forgive me just because I made you breakfast but I thought maybe we could eat together and talk?" Kurt gave him a searching look before sitting down and staring at his plate, his mind flashed back to their breakfast after their wedding night and how happy he'd been, how he and Blaine had spent an hour feeding each other in between kisses, every time they'd had this it always brought back memories that used to make him smile. Now however? It just made everything hurt that much more. His eyes stung and he squeezed them shut moving the plate away slightly and putting his head in his hands "I cant do this anymore Blaine" he whispered and looked up from his hands with watery eyes.

Blaine looked at him wide eyed and shook his head frantically "No...Kurt please...I swear things will be different! We can go to counseling! I'll be home from work every night at 5, we can have lunch together everyday...we'll sleep in the same bed, I'll do anything you want just please...PLEASE don't give up on me...on us" Blaine's eyes were filled with tears and tears were slipping down Kurt's face and he looked like he was in agony "Blaine...I don't think you understand just how bad things have been...I've been miserable for 8 months now, and if it wasn't for my dad trying to convince me that things would get better I would have packed my bags and walked away a long time ago. You spent months acting like I didn't exist, months lying about our marriage, months putting your job first...I tried so hard to fix things, so hard trying to convince myself it would get better only to be disappointed over and over again. How do you think it felt to walk into your office to try and put some romance back into our relationship, to try and make things work...do you have any idea how humiliated I was? Listening to people in your office taunt and laugh at me while my own husband does nothing to stand up for me, to have my husband act like I was the one at fault for wanting to do something to try and bring us closer together? only to find out the real reason why you never wanted me to call you at work was because you've been lying about being gay and pretending to be straight...pretending I didn't exist for the last 8 months? You've had other job offer's Blaine. But no apparently you'd rather stay at the job that was ruining our marriage but apparently you didn't care enough to notice."

Blaine tried to interrupt to insist he DID care and that he was an idiot before, to beg Kurt to give him another chance but Kurt kept going "Do you have any idea how it felt to get rejected OVER and OVER and OVER again by my husband who is supposed to love me? Every time I tried to kiss you I got pushed away like some annoying pest, every time I tried to get you to come to bed so we could fall asleep together you blew me off to sleep on the couch while I spent night after night alone crying myself to sleep wondering what I did wrong to make you not want to be near me anymore. Or how it felt to try and try to be intimate with you only to be snapped at, as if making love to your husband was some unpleasant chore, like you couldn't stand the idea of touching me. Do you have ANY idea how it felt to set up everything for our anniversary and spend HOURS staring at the door with a cold dinner and melted candles feeling like the biggest dumb ass on the planet for actually thinking our marriage meant anything to you anymore, that I meant anything to you anymore?...I have felt so unwanted and unloved, so disgusting and unattractive...for 8 months you have made me feel awful about myself...I didn't deserve this Blaine. I have loved you, been faithful to you and always supported you for 10 years now, I have been in love with you since we were in high school...and while I will always love you Blaine...I don't like you much anymore."

With that Kurt stood up leaving both his coffee and the food on the table, along with a stunned and horrified Blaine and left the kitchen to walk into the bedroom, he moved to his closet and grabbed his suitcase. He put in on the bed, unzipped it and began packing up some of his clothes, his computer, and all his toiletries. Blaine walked into the room and stared at him in shock before stuttering out "Kurt? W-what are you doing? Where are you going? Please don't do this... don't leave me" Kurt zipped up his bag and turned to face his husband, taking in the red eyes and tears, Blaine's hand was clutched to his chest over his heart and his breathing was so hitched it seemed as if he was going to hyperventilate "I'm going to stay at a hotel for a while, I need some time to think about all of this, about whether or not I still want to work on this marriage" Kurt said quietly and Blaine shook his head desperately and fell to his knee's in front of him, he clutched at Kurt's hips burying his face in Kurt's stomach. He felt Kurt freeze for a moment before he felt hesitant hands run through his hair gently.

"Please don't leave me, I'm so sorry I hurt you Kurt...I love you so much...please don't leave me...please" Blaine sobbed, despite Kurt's anger, sadness and hurt...he couldn't bare watching the man he loved falling apart in front of him, he knew he needed some time to himself to think about what he wanted to do, to think about his options, whether or not he wanted to find and talk to a divorce attorney ..possibly to find a therapist, while he wasn't ready for counseling with Blaine...he did need to talk to someone impartial, talking to his father had always helped simply because he had someone to talk to so he wasn't keeping his hurt to himself but his dad also loved Blaine and genuinely wanted them to work things out so talking to him didn't help much, he needed to talk to someone who didn't have any feelings involved with them who could help him sort through all of this, and THEN maybe he could start bringing Blaine with him to work on things. He moved Blaine's face to look at him and whispered a soft "Come here" and Blaine stood up on shaky legs still clutching Kurt desperately, Kurt cupped Blaine's face in his hands and wiped at his tears, Blaine kept whispering "please".

"Don't cry Blaine...I hate seeing you cry" Kurt said sadly and Blaine turned his head slightly to kiss Kurt's hand and moved forward to press a gentle kiss to Kurt's face and Kurt's hands fell to his shoulders, over and over he pressed soft kisses to Kurt's skin, Kurt's eyes were closed with tear's leaking out of them as he stood unresponsive, Blaine kissed Kurt's lips then pulled back to stare at Kurt's face which remained unresponsive before surging forward again and kissed his husband harder trying to get a response, over and over he kissed Kurt, he ran his tongue over Kurt's lower lip before sucking it into his mouth and he felt Kurt's body tremble, when he pulled away he whispered against Kurt's lips "kiss me back Kurt...I love you...please kiss me back" his pleading paired with another desperate kiss broke through Kurt defenses and he seemed to melt under Blaine's touch. One of his hands moved up to tangle into Blaine's hair and suddenly he was kissing Blaine back frantically, it'd been so long...so long since he'd been kissed like this by his husband, a deep wave of desire was running through Kurt's veins and when Blaine hand slipped down to cup his ass and forcefully pull their hips together causing Kurt to break from the kiss with a breathy moan and Blaine attached his lips to his neck nipping at the sensitive skin there and sucking dark love bites into Kurt's pale flesh. Kurt's mind had completely shut down and all he could do was feel.

Blaine used his body to move Kurt back towards the bed away from the suitcase and laid him down settling over his husband. Kurt felt like Blaine was everywhere, his heart was pounding in his chest, Blaine's hips were moving against his and he could feel the heat coiling in his stomach making him tremble with pleasure, it'd been too long since he'd had this feeling, since he'd felt this intense desire and passion between himself and his husband. While part of him was screaming to stop before things got to far, there was another part of him that so desperately wanted and needed this, he'd craved Blaine for months, craved his touch and his kiss, craved the feelings of love and closeness. Blaine quickly yanked off his shirt and helped Kurt slip off his before pulling their chest's together skin to skin. He desperately wanted to feel wanted by Blaine, to feel that spark between them that they'd always had together up till a few months ago.

They rocked together, skin slicked with sweat, mouth's meeting passionately Kurt was overwhelmed with all the sensations and when Blaine reached between them to palm at Kurt's erection whispering a hot "come on baby, cum for me", he was struck with the reality of what was happening, as much as he wanted this...if they slept together and he still left, things would feel so much worse for the both of them, and he didn't want to just give in to Blaine either because he was starved for affection, they needed to work things out and not just jump right back into sleeping together like nothing was wrong. "Wait...Blaine stop" Kurt said pushing at Blaine's chest. Blaine moved back with a furrowed brow "What's wrong? What is it?" he asked.

Kurt took Blaine's face in his hands "I just...Blaine we cant do this...I want to, believe me I want to...but it's not fair to either of us if we don't know where we stand right now. I want you so much, but I still need time to think about things, we still need to work on things and if we do this, I'm afraid we might regret sleeping together again too soon, the next time we make love I want it to be because we love each other and not because you are desperate to make me stay and I'm starved for affection". A tear slipped from Blaine's eye and he sighed resting his forehead against Kurt's "I love you, I'll do anything to make this work Kurt...anything you want, anything you need...just say the word and it's yours. Promise me you will think about us, about me...give me a chance to fix this, I cant live without you Kurt...your the love of my life...Please don't shut me out".

Kurt pressed their lips together once more "I'll think about everything you said Blaine, I want to talk to a therapist and get my head together so I can sort out my feelings...I hope you mean everything you are saying Blaine because if I give you a chance...you need to know that it's the last one you are going to get, I cant handle any more let downs...up till now I was actually considering divorce, but if you're serious about trying to fix things, I'll hold off on talking to a lawyer" Kurt admitted. Blaine looked heartbroken and he lifted himself off Kurt and sat next to him burying his head in his hands before looking over at Kurt with tears in his eyes "Divorce? you were going to...I cant..." he sobbed and buried his head in his hands again. Kurt sat up and hesitated slightly before placing a hand on Blaine's thigh.

Blaine lifted his head and stared at Kurt's hand, he stared at the ring on Kurt's hand for a moment before taking Kurt's hand in his and running his finger over the ring. "You know Kurt...when we got married I promised to love you every day till the day I die, in good times and bad, in sickness and in health, I vowed to always love, honor and cherish you...I know that since I got this job I haven't been the husband you deserve, I know I'm hurt you, and let you down...but I swear to you with everything in me...That I love you more than anything in this world, more than my job, this apartment, more than life itself... you are the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, and I will never EVER give up on us or what we have. So you take the time you need, do what you have to do, but just know that I will be here waiting for you. I'll do whatever it takes to prove to you that I mean everything I've said".

The two of them got dressed, each of their eyes lingering on one another. Once they were dressed Kurt asked Blaine if he would drive him to the hotel so that he would know all the details of where Kurt was staying just in case. Blaine sigh sadly but agreed and took Kurt's suitcase in hand holding out his other hand for Kurt to hold, Kurt laced their fingers together with a soft smile staring at their intertwined hands. Blaine put Kurt's suitcase in the car and opened up his door for him, reminding Kurt of when they first started dating. On their way to the hotel Blaine held Kurt's hand across the console, and at each red light he lifted their joined hands to his lips to press a soft kiss to Kurt's hand, whispering a soft "I love you" each time. At the hotel Blaine made sure Kurt got the best room they had and paid for it himself. He walked Kurt to his room and set his suitcase by the door watching Kurt silently as he looked around the room with a sad smile before turning to face Blaine.

Blaine held out his arms for Kurt who stepped into them and tucked his face into Blaine's neck allowing his husband to hold him close. "I love you Kurt, call me before you go to sleep please okay?" Blaine said quietly. Kurt sniffled and nodded pulling back slightly to see Blaine's face "I will, even though I'm staying here for a while...I need to know you are thinking about me...call me, text me...anything. Just because I'm here doesn't mean I want to cut off all contact." Blaine pressed a kiss to Kurt's forehead and caressed Kurt's cheek with the back of his hand "Tell me you still love me Kurt...please I need to hear you say it" he asked his eyes watering slightly and Kurt leaned back into his neck, his breath brushing over Blaine's ear causing him to shiver and whispered against his ear "of course I still love you...despite all of it...I love you so much Blaine". Blaine kissed Kurt hungrily trying to put as much emotion as he could into the kiss to make sure that Kurt could still feel just how much Blaine loved him.

With tears in their eyes they shared a sad goodbye "for now" Blaine insisted, and Blaine left to head back to his empty apartment to think about everything that had lead up to this, everything he'd done to cause his husband to doubt him, to cause his husband to need to get away from him to think about things. He was the reason Kurt now needed to see a therapist, he'd emotionally damaged his husband so much that Kurt couldn't handle his pain anymore on his own... He'd made his husband consider divorce...of everything that hit him the hardest, that made him understand just how deeply he'd hurt Kurt, just how much he'd screwed up the best thing that had ever happened to him. That night he laid in bed with his phone in his hand waiting for Kurt to call. While he was waiting he decided that first thing in the morning, he was quitting his job, he would tell everyone at the office he was married and had a husband he loved more than anything and that quite frankly they just weren't worth his time anymore. He'd make a few phone calls to some of the other companies that had offered him jobs over the last few months, with essentially the same pay, and more importantly much better hours. When his phone rang with Kurt's ring tone he answered immediately. It was time to woo his husband again, time to prove to him that he could be the man Kurt needed him to be, the man Kurt deserved. With a smile on his face, the re-courting of his husband began.

"Hello my love..."