Blaine was sitting up in bed reading one of their new marriage books, on the list had been some that she suggested he read, some Kurt should read, and some they should read together. The books each had 'workbook' portions, he understood now that he couldn't just change over night and expect things to get better. It was a process, It had taken eight months to ruin their marriage, it wouldn't take a weekend to fix it. Kurt's insecurities would be a big hurdle for the both of them, as would his fear of trusting Blaine again... a fear mostly based on letting Blaine back in only for him to slip right back into the habits that had caused problems to begin with. There was a part of Kurt that worried Blaine wanted to try for now... but that he'd eventually get bored and give up leaving them in the same mess as before.

But Blaine was determined to show Kurt he meant it, that he would see this through and prove to Kurt just how committed he was to this marriage and making it work. Next to him Kurt was curled up on his side of the bed fast asleep with a hand resting on the skin of Blaine's hip under his sleep shirt. Blaine sighed and ran a hand through his husbands hair hearing him let out a soft sound of approval and gave Kurt a small smile before setting the book down and slipping under the covers to pull Kurt up against his chest, it had been an emotional day for the both of them, but Kurt going back and bringing up things that had seriously damaged him really took a toll on him. Blaine had barely been able to get him to stay awake long enough to eat something for dinner before Kurt was passed out fully clothed in bed, Blaine had shaken his head at Kurt with a chuckle and took off his shoes and jeans before lifting Kurt and slipping him under the covers.

"Mmm..Blaine? What's going on?" Kurt sleepily murmured.

"It's okay baby, go back to sleep...I'm here. I've got you" Blaine whispered pressing a kiss to Kurt's temple.

Kurt replied with a barely there "Mkay.." and nuzzled into his husbands chest falling back to sleep.

Blaine thought about the firs three chapters he had read tonight, first thing tomorrow he would start with the 'workbook' section in the back of each chapter.

The following morning Blaine was the first up and he looked down at his husband who was comfortably cuddled up against his chest and smiled, dear god his husband was beautiful. He'd known since the first day he'd met Kurt that he was by far the single most gorgeous, attractive and utterly stunning person he'd ever met and probably would ever meet. Ten years later he still thought the same thing, Kurt was the most beautiful man in the entire world. How he could ever think he was ugly and unattractive was beyond Blaine entirely, even now with his hair mussed from sleep and his eyes closed and lips slightly parted...no one could even attempt to compare to how beautiful Blaine thought he was. Kurt was perfection. In Blaine's opinion he'd only gotten more perfect as the years had gone by, there was absolutely nothing he would change.

Kurt started stirring and Blaine saw the exact moment in his husbands face when he realized where he was and who was next to him, and it broke his heart to see that Kurt immediately looked embarrassed and panicked. He watched as his husbands tried to retract his hands and body away so he slid one of his arms up around Kurt's waist and the other to hold his hand over Blaine's heart "Don't go" he whispered and Kurt's face shot up to look at his and he pulled Kurt closer and nuzzled his face into Kurt's hair "Please don't go, stay" he murmured. He saw Kurt's face light up and a slight smile curve his lips and his body relaxed against Blaine's cuddling into him and slowly lifting one of his legs to curl over Blaine's. "This okay?" Kurt asked quietly and Blaine nodded "Of course it is...I can never have you close enough Kurt."

Blaine leaned his face down and kissed Kurt gently before nudging their noses together. "So last night I was reading one of the books on my list and at the end of each chapter it has an exercise to do, since I finished the first three chapters I figured we could maybe try them out? Would you be willing to do that with me today?" Blaine ask softly and Kurt gave him a smile "Sure, that sounds great, what's the first exercise?"

"Well, it's called 'Flooding' and basically, we are supposed to either sit facing each other, or lay down together facing each other, make eye contact and hold hands, just take turns telling each other that we love one another for five straight minutes, just nothing but 'I love you's" Blaine responded maintaining eye contact and he noticed the pleased spark light Kurt's eyes and knew that his husband approved of this.

"That sounds great, do you want to do it now or after breakfast?" Kurt asked shyly.

"That depends...are you hungry yet? I can make us breakfast in bed first if you are?" Blaine offered with a smile running a hand up and down Kurt's side.

Kurt smiled and nodded "That sounds great, if you don't mind? If you don't want to cook I can just go-" he started to sit up but, Blaine cut him off with a kiss "I don't mind making my husband breakfast, I like taking care of you"

Kurt blushed seemingly surprised and nodded slightly settling back onto the pillow. "Blaine?" he said quietly

"Yes sweetheart?"

Kurt looked him in the eyes and gave him a slight smile "I love you"

Blaine's eyes softened and he ran the back of his hand down the side of Kurt's face. "I love you too" he leaned forward and pressed a kiss to his husbands forehead and hopped off the bed to shuffle into the kitchen pulling out the ingredients for a quick breakfast, while the pan heated up he brewed some coffee and smiled to himself at the idea that he and Kurt where actually moving forward with their relationship, that he was getting a second chance. He cracked the eggs into a bowl whisking them together quickly and pouring them into the pan to make an omelette for himself and Kurt, he added some cheese and veggies and once they were done plated them carefully. Next up was the turkey bacon which he cooked up nice and crispy the way he knew his husband liked it. He prepared a tray and carefully carried it back into the bedroom, finding Kurt sitting up in bed with one of his books from the therapist in his lap his reading glasses that Blaine rarely ever got to see him in.

"Breakfast is served my love" Blaine said cheerfully placing the tray on the bed and climbing into it next to Kurt propping himself up against the pillows and settling back. Kurt marked his page and shot Blaine a smile which was returned "You know...I love the way you look in your glasses" Blaine said leaning over and pecking Kurt lightly on the nose. Kurt flushed a bit and shrugged touching his glasses a bit self consciously but left them on. He took the plate Blaine handed to him and shot him a pleased smile.

"Thank you" he said with a smile and accepted the mug of coffee as well taking a large gulp and sighing in contentment.

They ate breakfast in a comfortable silence and Blaine would never admit that he was carefully watching how much his husband ate, after hearing Kurt admit to starving himself for a month in an effort to get thinner in an attempt to make himself more attractive for his husband...chances were it would be a while before Blaine stopped paying attention to just how much and how often he ate. It scared him that Kurt had pushed himself that far, that he'd been in a bad enough place mentally he'd put his health at risk and that his own husband? Hadn't even noticed. He'd have to be careful though, last thing he wanted was for Kurt to realize what he was doing and get upset. They'd have to talk about it though, he needed to apologize and if necessary he'd spend hours worshiping Kurt's body trying to convince him just how perfect he was.

Once they'd finished up and Blaine tried to hide his relief in seeing that Kurt had managed to eat everything he'd put on his plate soothing away the worry that had taken up residence in Blaine's heart, he watched Kurt drink the rest of his coffee before sighing happily and letting himself fall back onto the pillows before rolling onto his side and propping his head up to face his husband. Blaine set his own plate aside and took one final drink from his mug before sliding down to lay beside Kurt as well, he reached out and tugged him closer slipping his hand up under Kurt's shirt to caress the skin of his lower back and leaned in to press a soft kiss to Kurt's lips.

When he pulled back he saw the slight blush on Kurt's cheeks and moved back in to pepper his face with small pecks causing him to start giggling before reaching out to grasp Blaine's face in his hands and pull him in for a proper kiss. When they parted Blaine heard Kurt let out a soft sigh before he whispered "Ten years and you still take my breath away".

"I hope I never stop" Blaine said softly giving Kurt one final peck before laying back down and grasping Kurt's hand to intertwine their fingers between them on the bed.

He looked into Kurt's eyes and gave him a small smile before saying "I love you"

Kurt returned his smile and responded in kind "I love you"

Blaine "I love you"

Kurt "I love you"

Blaine "I love you"

Kurt "I love you"

Blaine "I love you"

Kurt "I love you"

Blaine "I love you"

Blaine heard the hitched in Kurt's voice before he responded with the next "I love you" and squeezed his husbands trembling hand tighter, after the third 'I love you' Kurt's eyes had started to water and Blaine saw something in Kurt's composure crack and he knew deep down this was hitting Kurt hard, he thought back to Kurt during their therapy session and his retelling of how many times he'd said "I love you" praying to hear it back, how much he'd legitimately started to believe that his husband didn't love him anymore.

He was glad he chose this exercise first. Kurt needed it. He needed this, to hear over and over again that he was loved.

Before the five minutes where even up? Kurt broke down sobbing allowing Blaine to pull him into his arms and hold him. Blaine didn't stop though, he kept up with his steady stream of "I love you"s until Kurt's sobs tapered off into slight sniffles and simply held him, running a soothing hand through his hair and pressing light kisses to the top of his head.

"I'm sorry" He heard Kurt whisper brokenly and he shook his head squeezing Kurt tighter.

"Don't be. This is my fault. I shouldn't have ever given you a reason to doubt this. I don't care what it takes Kurt...I am going to fix us. I'll prove to you that I love you and that you can trust in us again. I love you so...so much Kurt. So much it almost feels like my heart will burst, so much I can hardly contain it...and the thought...that for even one second I got so lost in myself and my job that you had doubts? Is something I wont ever forgive myself for. You deserve so much more than what I've given you...you've loved me despite how I treated you the last eight months, you stayed despite me being not even an ounce of the husband you deserve. You didn't even think of cheating or look elsewhere for the affection or attention you weren't getting at home not that I would have blamed you if you did... and I seriously...seriously don't deserve to have someone as amazing as you as my husband. But I swear, I swear to you Kurt I will never take you for granted again. I love you, and I always will love you. Ever hour of every day of the rest of my life I will go on loving you until my heart stops beating...and if there's life after this? I'll still love you then. Because you're mine Kurt. My soul mate My whole world. My everything...and I wont give up on us. Ever... and I'm sorry, I'm so unbelievably sorry that treated you the way I did. But even if you never forgive me, even if you decided you hated me for all of this...I'll still love you Kurt. Always. I'll never stop"

They were quiet for a while, Blaine simply holding Kurt close to his chest with Kurt's head resting over his heart.

"Blaine?"

"Yes baby?"

"I love you too."

"I love you more."

"and...I wont. Give up I mean... on us. Ever. I promise"

Blaine kissed the top of his husbands head and whispered a soft "Thank you"

"and Blaine?"

"Yes sweetheart?"

"I could never hate you, no matter what. You're my everything too."

"I'm glad because I don't know if I could ever handle the thought of you hating me" he admitted quietly.

He felt Kurt shift and loosened his hold on him enough to allow Kurt to maneuver himself to they could look in each others eyes. "I-I know things are perfect, and it's going to be a long time and probably be a lot of hard work before things are right between us again. But despite all of it? I do forgive you. I wouldn't be willing to work on this and be here with you right now if I didn't. It doesn't make it okay, and it doesn't make the pain go away...but I forgive you. Not just for you but for me. Because what we have? Is too important, too special. Not everyone is lucky enough in life to meet their soul mate and get the opportunity to spend the rest of their lives together. If losing my mom taught me anything it's that life is too short, you should love the people you can...when you can because tomorrow isn't guaranteed...and I'd hate for anything to ever happen and to think you didn't know that I've forgiven you. We'll be okay. It'll take time but I know we will be okay. Because I have faith in you and in us, we just got lost for a little while...and now we have a map to find our way back. So we'll be okay. I just need you to bare with me and be patient for now. But never forget that I love you, you're my husband and I want to spend the rest of my life with you...loving you...building a family with you. I may have lost hope for a little while but it's back now and I am never ever letting you go. Okay?"

A tear slipped down Blaine's cheek and he pressed his forehead to Kurt's breathing in shakily before he whispered "Okay"

"I love you Forever" Kurt said softly.

"I love you Always" Blaine replied the same way he had the day they'd said I do.