Work on Monday was a godsend for Kurt. It was the perfect distraction from his thoughts. He turned off his brain and went into 'Fashion Mode'. When he got his phone back from Rachel he had 11 missed calls, 17 text messages and 6 voicemails. But not one message from Blaine. Though his message from Sugar offering to buy Blaine from his parents and gift him to Kurt DID make him laugh, it was short lived. After telling Blaine over and over again that he would 'never say goodbye' to him...it never occurred to him that he wouldn't have to because Blaine was going to say it first.<p>He agonized over the last conversation they had repeating the words in his head so many times it was making him crazy but he still couldn't understand it. He tried thinking back to the last few months for a clue, but even though things had been difficult he just hadn't seen this coming. Was he that clueless? Did he just not realize how unhappy Blaine was with him? He had thought they were ok, sure things weren't perfect but when you love someone as much as he thought they loved each other, everything just had to work out didn't it? Apparently not.</p><p>Kurt just wished he had at least gotten to kiss Blaine properly one last time. To run his hands threw his mess of curls, to cuddle up with him in bed and fall asleep in one another's arms. How was he supposed to move on from this? He just...couldn't see a life without Blaine by his side. It didn't compute. Trying to picture it was beyond difficult he could practically see the 'Error! Error!' flash across his mind. Blaine was so much more than his boyfriend. He was his best friend, the love of his life, the man he wanted to grow old with, have a family with...Blaine WAS his family...he didn't want anyone but him, the very idea of being with anyone else left a sour taste in his mouth.</p><p>On his lunch break he debated whether or not he should text Blaine.</p><p>He wondered if Blaine was worried about him at all. But if he had wouldn't he have called? Should he apologize? For whatever it was he did that made Blaine decide he didn't love him anymore? For yelling at him when Blaine tried to explain? It wasn't Blaine's fault he didn't love him anymore...It was Kurt...he just...maybe something was wrong with him.</p><p>He didn't think he could JUST be Blaine's friend...how can you stay friends with someone you planned on marrying? Sit back and watch them move on with their lives; love other people as if what you had was just a vague memory? A thing in the past...But at the same time...could he deal with the thought of never seeing Blaine again?</p><p>He hesitated on Blaine's name in his phone before taking a deep breath and decided to call; a voicemail was more personal right? Besides for all he know, Blaine's voicemail was the closest he would get to hearing Blaine's voice for a while. There was no fear of Blaine actually answering since he was in class and he normally kept his phone on silent in his locker.</p><p>'Hey! You've reached the voicemail of Blaine Anderson! I can't come to the phone right now so please leave a message after the-'</p><p>'Hey...umm...its me...I mean Kurt...it's Kurt...I just uhh...wanted to say that I'm sorry...I don't know what I did to make you fall out of love with me but I'm just....really sorry ... and I'm sorry I yelled at you on Friday...and I guess I just thought I should let you know I'm ok...if you were worried I mean...not to say you are worried or anything I just...I guess...umm...I hope you got home safe...I just...I guess I wanted to hear your voice. Sorry...this was stupid...I shouldnt have done this... you don't have to call me back I umm...just forget I called...or maybe you'll delete this before you even hear it...I gotta go my break is almost over...I lov- I mean ...I...just...goodbye Blaine" *Click*</p><p>Putting his head in his hands he sighed. That was a disaster. He probably sounded like a desperate idiot, Blaine would probably listen to that and decide he never wanted to speak to him again.</p><p>It was going to be a really long day.</p><p>*K&B*K&B*K&B*K&B*K&B*K&B*</p><p>After school Blaine laid on his bed staring at his phone for an hour trying to work up the courage to check his voicemail.<br />School had been...miserable. Sam and Brittany had glared at him all throughout glee club, Tina and Artie just kept giving him these pitying looks which were almost worse than the glares. Sugar had walked up to him, informed him she was currently talking to her Father's lawyers because she was trying to find a way to BUY him from his parents so that she could send him to Kurt. Coach Sylvester had found him on his way to lunch and spent almost a half hour demanding he fix his and Kurt's relationship or she would cut him into small pieces and ship him in separate boxes to various spots all over the world...and that was one of her kinder threats.</p><p>So when he got home and took out his phone, he didn't know what to expect.</p><p>He had 3 missed calls. One from Cooper, One from Santana....and one from Kurt.</p><p>The first two weren't nearly as terrifying as the last one.</p><p>Mentally telling himself to stop being a coward he hit callon his voicemail.</p><p>"you have 3 unheard messages"</p><p>"Hey B it's Coop...look little brother I don't know what's going on but mom called me and she sounded really worried about you...did something happen between you and Kurt? Weren't you supposed to go visit him this weekend? Mom said you came home a day early...Did you guys get into a fight or something? Well umm....either way...just...talk to him ok? Fix whatever is going on because Mom is really worried about you and so am I; she said you barely ate all weekend and you haven't been taking care of yourself...just...call me back ok? Let me know you're alright. Love you kiddo"<br />*click*</p><p>"Es estúpido idiota hobbit! Debo enterrar vivo! ¿Tiene usted alguna idea de lo que has hecho? Él iba a proponer idiota! Es mejor que espero que sean capaces de solucionar este problema porque si no de porcelana no será capaz de protegerse de mi ira! Usted no merece él!"<br />*click*</p><p>(A/N: sorry if the Spanish sucks, I used google translate lol I'll post the English version in the Authors Note at the bottom)</p><p>Blaine was actually glad for the first time in his life he wasn't good at Spanish...he was almost positive Santana's yelling was probably various creative death threats and he'd officially had enough of those to last him a life time. He deleted that one and held his breath in nervousness for Kurt's message.</p><p>"Hey...umm...its me...I mean Kurt...it's Kurt...I just uhh...wanted to say that I'm sorry...I don't know what I did to make you fall out of love with me but I'm just....really sorry ... and I'm sorry I yelled at you on Friday...and I guess I just thought I should let you know I'm ok...if you were worried I mean...not to say you are worried or anything I just...I guess...umm...I hope you got home safe...I just...I guess I wanted to hear your voice. Sorry...this was stupid...I shouldnt have done this... you don't have to call me back I umm...just forget I called...or maybe you'll delete this before you even hear it...I gotta go my break is almost over...I lov- I mean ...I...just...goodbye Blaine"<br />*Click*</p><p>Blaine stared at the phone in his hand in shock.</p><p>Kurt thought he didn't love him anymore? That he did something to make Blaine STOP loving him? Was he insane? Kurt was perfect! Kurt thought he cared so little about him he wouldn't be worried? That he would rather delete a voicemail from him than listen to it? Dear god... this was...this was bad. Kurt just sounded so SAD. So small, andSo scared as if he thought Blaine would be mad at him for calling. For wanting to hear his voice.</p><p>Sam was right...he didn't deserve Kurt.</p><p>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~</p><p>Translation of Santana's Voicemail:</p><p>"You stupid idiotic hobbit! I should burry you alive! Do you have ANY idea what you have DONE? He was going to propose dumbass! You better hope we are able to fix this because if not Porcelain won't be able to protect you from my wrath! You don't deserve him!"</p>