Kurt couldn't stop thinking about what Rachel had said. Who was her 'source'? And why would they have her tell him not to give up on Blaine? That he still loved him. Was it some kind of sick joke? He didn't honestly know what to believe anymore. Everything he knew had been ripped to shreds, how could anyone expect him to believe that Blaine had suddenly decided out of no were that he still loved Kurt and wanted him back? This wasn't a fairytale. He wasn't going to get his happily ever after. Prince charming was a myth. The sooner he accepted that the better....and it was that logic that lead him to the current situation.

Apparently it had gotten around the office that he was now officially single, and he was genuinely surprised when on his way to lunch one of the Model's on set asked him out to dinner the following night. At first he almost said 'No thank you I'm seeing someone' before he realized he actually WASN'T anymore, and why shouldn't he go on a date? So the love of his life dropped him like yesterday's trash and broke his heart...didn't someone somewhere once say the best way to get over an old love is a new one? So he said yes.

After an hour of listening to Rachel tell him he was making a huge mistake and going on and on about how he was going to ruin 'everything' he was able to get dressed, tell Rachel he appreciated her concern but he needed to do this and set off for the restaurant.

On paper there was absolutely nothing wrong with Alex. He was attractive, charming, successful; intelligent...Kurt had ended up spending the entire date comparing him to Blaine. First it was his outfit, he had to consciously restrain himself from commenting that Blaine had that same shirt and it looked 100 times better on him. Then it was the way he ate his food. For some reason it was irritating, he missed the way Blaine would twirl his pasta around on his fork always ending up with too big a bite and trying to eat it anyways. So while he sat there tuning out Alex as he droned on and on about some photo shoot he did in Spain recently, all Kurt could think about was Blaine.

Their first date when everything was new and exciting and they spent more time blushing and staring at each other than actually eating or talking, or the time they tried that new sea food place in Westerville only to both end up with food poisoning half way through the meal. Their anniversary when they had bought tickets to a dinner theater and spent half the night laughing at how completely TERRIBLE the acting was. Their coffee dates at the Lima bean, were Blaine had first told Kurt he loved him, were they had their first fight, where he first told Blaine he had feelings for him...Rachel was right. He couldn't do this. No matter how nice and 'perfect' Alex was, he just wasn't Blaine, and try as Kurt might there was no denying the fact he was still just as much if not even more in love with Blaine now than ever before. All this date had done was proven to Kurt that no one else would ever compare, that it was stupid to even try. During his great epiphany he hadn't even realized Alex has stopped talking and was looking at him with an expression that bore defeat.

"This isn't working is it?" He asked softly

Kurt shook his head "I'm sorry Alex...you really are wonderful...but honestly? I am still very much in love with my ex...and this just...this feels like I'm cheating on my own heart." He admitted.

Alex smiled sadly and nodded at him "Its alright, I understand...I was honestly flattered you even agreed to go to dinner with me, I was fully prepared to be shot down...you really are great Kurt...you just have something about you that is so...so special and its hard not to be drawn in by you...whoever this guy is...I hope he comes to his senses...anyone lucky enough to win your heart must be one hell of a guy"

With a small rueful smile Kurt agreed "That he is...I promise though...if things...if he doesn't come to his senses...if or when I'm ready to date again, you'll be the first to know ok? But for now, honestly, I think I could just really use a friend is that's alright"

Alex stuck out his hand for a shake "Kurt Hummel will you accept my humble offer of friendship with the promise that I won't hit on you again until you give me explicit permission?"

With a laugh Kurt nodded and took his hand "I accept your offer."

"Excellent, so it's settled this is a nice no pressure dinner between friends...so friend why don't you tell me about this man of yours? How did you two meet?"

Two hours and 3 glasses of wine later, Kurt was actually feeling better. It felt good to just let loose, to talk to someone who wasn't worried he was going to break down and burst into tears every time they moved. Talking about Blaine from the beginning was almost therapeutic. All of his friends had been around when he met Blaine, it wasn't often that he got to tell the story of 'KurtandBlaine' to someone that didn't already know it. The more he talked and each story he told had left both a warm fuzzy feeling in his heart and a sense of sincere longing. Maybe he shouldn't give up on Blaine. Maybe Rachel's 'source' knew something he didn't and there was still hope for them yet. He wasn't sure if it was the Wine or good company, but when Kurt hopped into his cab to head home, he was in a fairly decent mood for the first time since the break up.