I had to do it, he told himself. It was for the best. Blaine was on the plane back home and he'd yet to stop crying. Watching Kurt walk away from him crying was by far the most painful thing he'd ever witnessed. He couldn't shake the feeling that he'd just make the biggest mistake of his life. As hard as it was imagining a life without Kurt he had to believe it was for the best. He knew the lack of communication had been taking a toll on Kurt, when he realized Kurt had taken to sleeping with his phone in his hand waiting for Blaine to call instead of going out with friends or coworkers at night, it killed him. New York was Kurt's dream, and he couldn't even enjoy it because he was so wrapped up in his relationship with Blaine. Kurt was putting everything on hold for Blaine, anytime he suggested going to see a show or suggesting something he thought Kurt would enjoy, Kurt always said he'd rather wait till they could do it together. He could always hear the disappointment in Kurt's voice when he was forced to cancel skype dates for whatever reason. The guilt was eating him alive.

When his parents had put their foot down about him visiting every weekend stating it was simply unrealistic, he could feel that cold ball of dread in the pit of his stomach and he knew that this was just the beginning in the list of obstacles for their relationship. Kurt deserved better than sitting at home every weekend waiting by the phone for his silly high school boyfriend. Kurt was beautiful and talented, in the city of his dreams, working for Vogue. He was going to be surrounded by gorgeous successful men constantly, Men who could offer him things Blaine wouldn't be able to for at least another couple years... and how could he compete with that? How long would it take before Kurt looked at him and realized he could do so much better?

Just because Kurt didn't realize how beautiful he was didn't mean Blaine didn't, Kurt never realized how many people looked at him when they were in public. When he had flown up with Kurt to help him settle in the week before school he had to refrain from throwing a paper bag over Kurt's head and forcing him into baggy clothes that hid his amazing body. They had simply walked from Kurt's new building to the coffee shop on the corner and Blaine had counted at least 11 different guys checking out Kurt, not including the barista inside the coffee shop. It didn't help that Kurt didn't seem to own pants that looked anything less than painted on. While Blaine had always enjoyed watching the way his boyfriends strong legs and fantastic butt in his pants when he walked, he sure as hell didn't want anyone else to. By the time they got back to Kurt's apartment, Blaine didn't make it much further than walking in the door before slamming Kurt against it and kissing him senseless, enjoying the way Kurt's arms automatically wrapped around him pulling him closer and moaning into his mouth, he couldn't help the way he pressed desperately against Kurt's hips for friction. They made love hard and fast on Kurt's brand new bed leaving a trail of clothes on the floor leading towards the bedroom, screaming each other's names and trading breathless 'I love you's before falling asleep curled up together with Blaine's head on Kurt's chest with Kurt's hand carding soothingly through Blaine's hair.

When Blaine went home the next day he couldn't help but worry. Blaine was a physical person, he craved Kurt's touch almost constantly, but he had understood why they couldn't unless they were behind closed doors while in Lima, but in New York? Kurt was free to walk hand in hand with whomever he pleased. Except Blaine wasn't there, what if he didn't get accepted to any of the school's in New York? What if Kurt woke up one morning and decided he couldn't handle waiting a year to have a proper relationship? All Blaine could think about was them reaching their breaking points, having some huge blow up drawn out fight and breaking up. The most terrifying part about a possible break up with Kurt was besides the break up itself was that if they ended on bad terms...he would lose Kurt completely. A life without Kurt in it just wasn't an option. Ever. He needed him in his life, even if he had to settle for just being Kurt's friend. Even if he had to watch Kurt love someone else and it would kill him inside, if that's the only way he could keep him in his life, he'd do it. One thing was for sure though; he would love Kurt for the rest of his life and nothing would ever change that. This was the only way he could think of to keep Kurt. Even if it broke his heart, he had to let him go, set him free and let him live his dream without being tied down by some stupid clingy High school boyfriend.

He just hoped than he'd live long enough to watch Kurt live his dreams after everyone back home finds out about the break up. If he managed to survive Mr. Hummel, nothing guaranteed he would make it out alive after dealing with Kurt's 'boys', he couldn't decide whether he was more afraid of Kurt's dad or Finn, Puck, Sam, Blake and most likely Sebastian getting a hold of him.