The week before spring break Blake and Sebastian were sitting in Sebastian's living room cuddled up on the couch supposedly watching a movie but in reality were just talking quietly to one another when Blake suddenly brought up Kurt and Blaine's wedding and all the planning that had been going on, he was gushing about the picture's Kurt had sent him of the venue and how excited he was about everything. Sebastian rolled his eyes and listened patiently as his boyfriend ranted about the wedding and how perfect Kurt and Blaine were together.

"Hey bas?" Blake asked quietly

Sebastian hummed in response.

"Do you ever think about getting married?" he asked softly with butterflies in his stomach, Blake already knew he wanted to marry Sebastian, he was it for him, the love of his life. They'd been together for a little over 8 months now and he was curious as to Sebastian's thoughts on the idea. What he wasn't expecting was Sebastian to laugh at him as if it were the most ridiculous thing he'd ever heard.

"Marriage? Ha! Do I think about marriage? Uhhh...let me think....no" He said with a chuckle. Blake turned in his arms to look at him seriously.

"Like...ever? You never think about it? Not even once?"

"No, I don't do marriage, the thought never really appealed to me, I've never really seen myself being someone's husband" he said with a shrug.

Blake felt a tightening in his chest. "...so...does that mean you don't want to marry me?"

"Never really thought about it, isn't it kinda...I don't know...soon to think about that? Can't we just enjoy what we have right now?" Sebastian asked slowly.

"I'm not saying that I want to get married right this minute...but...are you saying that isn't even an option for us? Ever? At any point in the foreseeable future?" Blake said pulling away from him and moving to sit on the other side of the couch staring at Sebastian with hurt eyes.

Sebastian huffed out a frustrated sigh and responded "I just don't even understand why we are talking about this, you just said you don't want to get married right this minute so what does it even matter? I love you, you love me...that's enough right? We don't need a stupid piece of paper to prove that"

"So that's it then. You never want to marry me" Blake said trying to fight the painful throb in his chest and the stinging he began to feel in his eyes as he looked down at his hands in his lap.

Sebastian groaned "Babe...just...look I just don't see the need to get married, you're making a big deal out of nothing"

"It's not 'nothing!' How exactly am I supposed to feel when someone I thought I had a future with tells me that they don't want to marry me? Don't you want to be with me forever?" Blake asked sniffling and hastily wiping a tear from his eye moving away when Sebastian reached for him.

Sebastian sighed "Forever is... a really long time, why don't we just focus on our relationship right now instead of arguing about some stupid technicality?"

Blake just stared at him before standing up and wrapping his arms around his middle. "That's it isn't it? You don't want to marry me because you think this relationship has an expiration date"

"Ok now you're putting words in my mouth" Sebastian said standing up irritatedly.

"No I'm not, let's look at the facts, you don't want to marry me, you think forever is a long time and marriage is just a stupid technicality" Blake said with a sniffle

"You are being ridiculous, I can't even believe we are having this conversation, look we were fine ten minutes ago, let's just lay back down on the couch and watch our movie"

"No, I'm not just going to sit down and pretend everything is fine right now when it's not" He said tears leaking from his eyes.

"Babe..."

"No...I'm glad we talked about this now...it's obvious we aren't on the same page in this relationship and I'm glad I finally know where I stand with you"

"Will you please just be reasonable? You are making me feel insane"

"Is there someone else?" Blake asked suddenly, causing Sebastian's mouth to drop in shock

"What?!" he asked disbelievingly

"Is there someone else? Is that why you don't want to marry me? Did you meet someone?" He asked brokenly

"Of course there isn't anyone else, I'm with you! I love YOU, I'm in a relationship with you for Christ's sake and I don't even DO relationships!"

"So you love me but you can't see a future with me? Maybe I was wrong when I thought you'd changed, all this time...this relationship has had an expiration date for you... was I just...a game? Are you just keeping me around because you got bored with having to find someone new to sleep with all the time?" He sobbed pulling at his hair.

"God damn it Blake...no...how can you even...you know what? Why don't we just...stop for a minute...take a break and we can talk when you aren't acting crazy because right now...you are acting like you have completely lost your mind" Sebastian said exasperatedly

"First I'm ridiculous and now I'm crazy, well I'm sorry for being so in love with you that I want to marry you and I'm sorry Ive been spent the last 8 months thinking we had a future together, I don't know what I was thinking, obviously I've just been a fucking idiot this entire time" He said walking towards the door grabbing his jacket.

"Where the fuck do you think you are going?" Sebastian asked following him

"Away from here." Blake answered shortly.

"Will you please just sit down and we can talk about this like adults?" Sebastian said calmly.

Blake turned to look at him and stared him straight in the eye "Do you or do you not want to marry me at some point in the future? Do you or do you not think marriage is stupid?" He asked

Sebastian hesitated and opened his mouth, no words coming out. Blake nodded seemingly in acceptance and continued putting on his jacket.

"That's all I needed to know, I think we need to take some times for ourselves to think about where this relationship is heading"

"Wait...Please...please don't leave" Sebastian begged, it had finally hit him just how serious this was to Blake, he should have realized...Blake wouldn't have brought this up if it didn't mean something to him, he'd seen how excited he'd been about Kurt and Blaine's wedding, the wistful looks on his face whenever they hung out with Blaine and it came up. He'd known Blake would want to get married at some point, sure he'd never really thought about it seriously and he'd probably spoken a bit rashly when he said marriage was just a stupid piece of paper, he KNEW Blake better than anyone, he wore his heart on his sleeve and his emotions were always right below the surface fully visible for anyone who paid attention.

Blake grabbed his key's and walked towards Sebastian a tear slipping down his face and placed a hand on his cheek taking a shaky breath before leaning forwards and pressing his lips softly against Sebastian's. "I need some time to clear my head, I'm... upset and really hurt...maybe we should just...take a break or something for right now and figure out where we are going to go from here ok? I'm going to go; I'll ...call you I guess. Goodnight Bastian" he said sadly pulling away from him.

Sebastian reached out and clutched at his shirt shaking his head trying to pull Blake back to him but Blake pushed him away and turned towards the door opening it and stepping out into the night air towards his car, he got in started the engine and cast a sad look at the front door where Sebastian stood before pulling out of the drive way and driving away. Sebastian was standing at the door in complete shock...he couldn't process what just happened, he was stunned, he felt like he was going to pass out...or maybe throw up... a break? What did that even mean? Were they breaking up? Was Blake leaving him because he didn't want to get married? Why didn't he want to get married in the first place? He loved Blake, he knew he didn't want to be with anyone else, and so what was the big deal in giving him something that obviously meant so much to him? His eyes stung and tears slipped down his cheeks as he choked out a harsh sob. What the fuck did he just do? He ran into the living room and grabbed his phone frantically hitting speed dial to call Blake to tell him to come back so they would fix this but it went straight to voicemail.

"Babe...please come back...just come back and stay here and we'll fix this...I love you. Please call me back" He said once the machine let him leave a message. He hung up and ran a hand through his hair staring at his phone for a moment before sitting on the couch in frustration trying to will it to ring. If Blake wasn't going to answer his calls all he could do was sit and wait till he called him back, he figured he was either heading home or to a friend's house, the last place he ever expected was Blake driving all the way to New York however.

*K&B*K&B*K&B*K&B*

Blake drove all night; it wasn't until he'd been driving for about six hours that he even realized where he was heading. Apparently he was going to New York, he decided it was probably the best decision he could have made right now. Besides Sebastian, Kurt was pretty much his best friend, and of all times, he definitely needed his best friend right now. He tried to think back to their conversation and wondered what the hell had even happened, why did he even bring it up? If he had just kept his mouth shut about wanting to get married sometime in the future they'd probably sleeping in each other's arms after a round of hot passionate sex, as opposed to crying hysterically in his car on his way to New York in the middle of the night wondering whether or not his relationship was over. He'd shut off his phone the minute he'd pulled out of the drive way, he wondered whether or not Sebastian would even be trying to get a hold of him.

By the time he'd pulled up to Kurt's building the sun was up and he was officially exhausted, emotionally, mentally and physically. He realized he had literally nothing with him but the clothes he was wearing but at this point he didn't even care, he just hoped Kurt had something for him that would fit. He trudged tiredly up the stairs and stood in front of Kurt's door breathing a deep sigh before lifting his hand and knocking, it was a few minutes before a bleary eyed Kurt opened his door yawning before his brows rose in shock and he stared at Blake in surprise "Blake? What the hell are you doing here? Is everything ok?" He asked concernedly ushering him inside. Blake walked inside and plopped down on the couch and shook his head breaking down into tears again. Alarmed Kurt sat down next to him and pulled him into a hug asking him what happened. When Blake finally managed to calm down enough to tell Kurt everything Kurt had simply sighed and got up to grab him a pillow and some pajamas, Blake changed and laid down on the couch, he was asleep within minutes and Kurt walked into his bedroom and sat on the bed checking the time before he picked up his phone to call Sebastian.

"Hello? Blake? Is that you?" a groggy voice came from the other end

"Sebastian? It's Kurt"

"Hummel? What's up? Why are you calling me so early?" he asked confused letting out a loud yawn.
"Because your boyfriend just showed up at my front door and spent the last half hour crying hysterically on my couch and is currently passed out due to exhaustion, I'm assuming he drove all night to get here"

"WHAT?! Blake's in New York? What the fuck is he doing in New York?" Sebastian shouted suddenly wide awake.

"I don't know but I'm not about to wake him up to ask him, he told me he hasn't talked to you since he left your place so figured you were probably worried and I should give you a call"

"Fuck...uh...thanks for calling me, I slept with my phone in my hand just in case he called" He said quietly

"Look...I don't know what you plan on doing to fix this...but you need to do something. I've never seen Blake this upset, the guy smiles more than anyone I know and he seems under the impression that you have decided you don't want to be with him anymore and has no idea whether or not you guys are even together right now"

"We just...we had a stupid fight...he was talking about marriage and I just...freaked out and shot him down and...I think I broke his heart. I fucked up Kurt" he said and Kurt heard him sniffle and he raised his brows in shock. Sebastian not only called him Kurt, he was crying.

"Shhh, it'll be okay Seb...Just...give him some time to cool down and you guys can talk this out, this will be all work out, I promise it will, you guys love each other. Blake loves you Sebastian, and you love him...you guys will be fine. You just need to both cool off so you can talk about this, I'll talk to him when he gets up and try to get him to call you ok?" he soothed

"Kurt...I just...I love him. I've never loved anyone before; I can't...what if I messed everything up? Why couldn't I have just told him I would marry him when he asked me? Why didn't I tell him he was my forever? He's been my forever since the minute I asked him to be my boyfriend. I spent hours last night thinking about everything that was said and now I just...I hurt him. I know I hurt him, I looked him in the eyes and told him marriage was stupid and called him crazy, what the fuck is wrong with me?" he sobbed.

Kurt was...flabbergasted. Sebastian didn't do vulnerable, didn't do emotional, and here he was sobbing terrified he was about to lose Blake. He needed to call Blaine and send him over to Sebastian's to calm him down, whether Sebastian wanted to accept his help or not. Both Blake and Sebastian had helped them when they were going through a rough patch, and now it was their turn to return the favor. They were his friends, he loved them both and wanted them to be happy, obviously apart they were both worse for wear and more than a little hysterical and depressed.

"Just breath Seb, I'll talk to him. I'm going to call Blaine and ask him to go hang out with you for a bit so you don't have to be alone ok? I'll help you fix this I promise, it's all going to be alright. Just take a deep breath and relax we'll figure this out together and you two will be happy again before you know it ok? Look at Blaine and I, we went from broken up to engaged. You two aren't broken up, you are just having a fight and you are going to make up and things will be fine. I just need you to trust me ok?"

He heard Sebastian sniffle "Ok Kurt...ok. I trust you...will you just...will you tell him that I love him and that I'm sorry? I didn't mean it, I would never ever do anything to hurt him...can you just tell him that for me please? And ask him to call me?"

"Of course I will Seb. Just sit tight, I'm sending Blaine over and you guys can talk while I talk to Blake ok? It's all going to work out. I'll talk to you later Seb"

"Yea, alright...Bye Kurt"

"Bye" Kurt said clicking end call and calling Blaine immediately after, he explained the situation to him and asked him to please go check on Sebastian because he was seriously upset and crying and Kurt didn't want him to be alone right now. Blaine agreed and wished Kurt good luck with Blake and they hung up after exchanging I love you's.

Kurt walked into the kitchen and set to making kitchen and some food for himself and Blake for whenever he woke up. He set Blake's plate in the microwave and sat at the counter drinking his coffee considering how he'd handle this situation. Ten minutes later he was up and pulling various ingredients out of the cupboards with the intention of making muffins. He tended to bake when he was stressed or had a lot on his mind, besides...maybe muffins would put Blake in a better mood when he woke up, he did tend to love his baked goods.

Three hours later Kurt was sitting at the table after having made two batches of muffins, cleaned the kitchen and drained three cups of coffee. He was staring off into space lost in thought when Blake shuffled into the kitchen and took a seat at the table without a word, Kurt stood and poured him a cup of coffee setting it in front of him and pressing a minute on the microwave to heat up his food and grabbed a muffin for him while he was at it, he set everything in front of Blake who just stared blankly at the coffee in his hands before he looked up at Kurt sadly. "Am I stupid?" He asked

"Why do you say that?"

"Just...am I stupid for thinking Sebastian and I would get married eventually? That we'd have what you and Blaine have?"

"Of course not, you're in love. I was dreaming about marrying Blaine before we even started dating and he was serenading a homeless looking Gap store manager...you're not stupid, you just love him. There's nothing wrong with that"

"I just feel like I messed everything up by asking him, like now he's going to freak out and decide he can't do this anymore and doesn't want anything to do with me"

"I promise that's not even a little true, I talked to Sebastian after you fell asleep. He was worried about you, you know? When he didn't know where you were and couldn't get a hold of you"

Blake's eyes widened "You called him? What did he say?"

"That he loves you" Kurt said simply

"Really?"

"Really, he wanted me to tell you that he loves you, he's sorry and he didn't mean any of it, he'd really like you to call him"

Blake sniffled and rubbed his nose. "Are you sure he's not just saying that?" he asked

"Blake...he was crying. He thinks you're going to leave him, and he's pretty much convinced he's the biggest fuck up on the planet. I've never heard him like that before. He wants to fix this, he feels like an asshole for hurting you and making you doubt his feelings for you"

Blake whipped away a tear from his eye and sighed pressing the heel of his palm against his eyes. "God this is such a mess. We are so fucking stupid"

"Not stupid remember? In love...and people do stupid things when they are in love, rational thought disappears in matters of the heart Blake...you guys just need to sit down and talk and work all this out"

Blake nodded and took a big gulp of coffee. "So...should I call him?"

Kurt pulled out his phone and realized he had a text from Blaine saying that Sebastian was on his way to New York to get Blake back and tell him how sorry he is in person.

"Well...you might not have to. Apparently he'd planning on coming here"

Blake's eyes widened "He's coming to New York? Are you serious?"

Kurt nodded fingers flying as he text Blaine who was explaining what had happened, that after an hour of talking Sebastian apparently lost it and decided he couldn't wait for Blake to call him and he needed to see him so he could fix things, he told Kurt that Sebastian was flying so chances are he'd been there sometime within the next couple hours max. Kurt relayed the information to Blake who had started shoveling food into his mouth in a flurry and chugged his coffee asking Kurt if he could use his shower and borrow some clothes because he didn't want to look like shit when Sebastian got there. Kurt nodded and led him into his room pulling out some jeans he thought would fit him and a t-shirt adding a brand new tooth brush to the pile and shoving it into Blake's hands letting him know to help himself to anything in the bathroom and he'd be waiting for him in the living room with he was done. Blake showered and dressed quickly, brushed his teeth and attempted to make his hair look decent before walking back into the living room to see Kurt sitting on the couch watching TV, he started to pace ringing his hands together anxiously trying to think of what he would say when Sebastian got here. Not even 45 minutes later there was a loud knock at the door and Sebastian's voice was heard from the other side.

"Kurt?! Blake?! Open the door, I am not leaving until I talk to you, please just let me talk to you"

Blake ran to the door and threw it open staring at a disheveled Sebastian who was looking at him in relief.

"Can we talk?" Sebastian said hoarsely and Blake nodded motioning him inside. Kurt stood and looked at the two for a moment before dramatically yawning and stating loudly that he needed to run to the store for...something and would be back in an hour, as he walked out the door he yelled over his shoulder to please not be naked when he got back. The two boys ignored him and stared at each other vaguely aware when the door shut.

"Hey" Blake said softly

"Fuck Blake...do you...do you have any idea how freaked out I have been when I had no idea where you were and you weren't answering your phone?" Sebastian asked

"Did you come here to yell at me or talk?" Blake said sitting on the couch and putting his head in his hands. Sebastian sighed "I'm sorry...I just...I was worried about you. You were upset when you left and for all I knew you could have been lying in a ditch somewhere"

"Well, I'm sorry I worried you" Blake said with a sigh.

"Babe...just...will you let me talk without interrupting me for a minute so I can get this all out?" Sebastian said kneeling in front of Blake on the couch and taking his hands in his. Blake nodded.

"I...I am so fucking sorry. I'm an idiot and a dumbass and I don't fucking deserve you. I am so in love with you, you are the ONLY one for me. Ever. I never want to be with anyone else. I'm sorry I laughed when you asked if I thought about us getting married, I'm sorry I said marriage was stupid, I'm sorry for hurting your feelings and making you cry, I'm sorry I made you think I would ever even consider a future without you in it. You are the love of my life. I've never loved anyone before, and it scares me shitless sometimes, but I swear to you that this is real, I don't ever want to be without you, watching you walk away from me last night was probably the most painful thing I've ever been through and I never want to feel that way again. If you want to get married? Say the word babe and I'll go buy you a ring. We can get married right now if you want. Your it for me, no doubts in my mind and if I have to marry you to show you that I mean it then let's do it, let's get married, I'll probably be a shit husband and fuck up all the time and you'll be asking for divorce in a year once you realize how much better you can do that me, but if it's what you want? I'll do it. If I were going to marry anyone it'd be you. I can't think of anyone else I'd want to spend my forever with. You are mine and I am yours that is how it should be. So please, PLEASE just don't leave me, I don't think I'll be able to handle it if you left me, I just...I can't...I love you...please just stay with me? Stay? We can get married I promise" By this point Sebastian was sobbing clutching at Blake's thighs with his head bowed to rest against Blake's knee's. Blake was staring at Sebastian in shock with stunned tears streaming down his face as he pulled Sebastian's face up to look at him.

"Bas...baby I'm not leaving you. I love you. I love you more than anything; we don't have to get married, I believe you, I just...can we at least have it as an option for the future at some point? Maybe in a few years?" he asked softly and Sebastian nodded desperately climbing next to Blake on the couch and wrapping his arms around his middle hiding his face in his neck. "I promise, you say the word and we'll get married." He whispered with a hitch in his breath.

"Shhhh...its ok baby. We're okay. I'm sorry, don't cry sweetheart, I'm here and I'm not going anywhere, I love you bas. I love you...and for the record...I don't think you'd be a shit husband. I think you'd be a wonderful husband, if I didn't I wouldn't even consider marrying you"

Blake laid back and pulled Sebastian to lay on top of him so he could hold him against his chest and ran a hand threw his hair soothingly and Sebastian tried to regain control of his emotions.

"Bas, baby look at me"

Sebastian looked up at Blake with swollen red eyes that just broke his heart; he cupped Sebastian's face in his hands and kissed him softly. Sebastian pressed back against him desperately deepening the kiss and clutching at Blake's shirt. Blake kissed him back and ran a hand down Sebastian's back slipping a hand under his shirt and caressing the skin of his lower back before slipping a leg between Sebastian's and pressing their bodies closer together, smiling against Sebastian's lips when he whimpered and pressed his hips against Blake's insistently. They continued to rock against one another and Blake slid Sebastian's shirt up causing Sebastian to lift up momentarily to tug it off and fling it somewhere across the room and he pulled at Blake's shirt until Blake leaned up to let Sebastian take his off as well, less than five minutes later their pants joined their shirts on the floor followed by boxers and things were just starting to get steamed up when Kurt unlocked the door, walked in and screamed covering his eyes.

"WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT NOT BEING NAKED WHEN I CAME BACK?! I CAN NEVER UNSEE THAT...OH GOD MY EYES...MY POOR INNOCENT EYES" He groaned "Put some clothes on, I'm going to go to my room and bleach my eyes to get rid of that image...I'm going to have to burn my couch...I really liked that couch...I hate you both...congratulations on making up you perverts" He said covering the side of his face with his hand and walking determinedly to the bedroom shutting the door behind him. Blake and Sebastian looked at each other for a moment before laughing and getting up to get dressed.

"Oops" Blake said between giggles. Sebastian just shrugged unashamedly. "He's just mad because now that he's seen us naked he's realized that Blaine's ass has nothing on mine... or yours for that matter"
Blake snorted and shook his head pressing a kiss to Sebastian's lips "And you're back."

Sebastian grinned and wiggled his eyebrows "Soooo....hotel? Home? Anywhere that we can finish where we left off?" he asked

"My car is outside...let's go home Bas..."

"Car sex? That works." Sebastian nodded pulling Blake towards the door who was yelling a goodbye to Kurt who responded with a dramatic "NAKED ON MY COUCH! Back to Lima you heathens!" before peeking out the door and waving to them with a smile. The two laughed and shook their heads before heading to the car to make their way back to Lima.

"Well...all in all today was a success. I got you back, traumatized Hummel and I'll probably be getting car sex soon." Sebastian said with a wide grin to Blake who simply rolled his eyes and pushed him towards the car.

"You are so lucky I love you"

Sebastian's face softened and he pulled Blake into a hug holding him tightly "I know. Believe me...I know"