The two weeks before the show seemed to fly by for Kurt. Work had been crazy because everyone was trying to get a jump on the upcoming winter season; himself included. He had never been more grateful for the fact that he had Cathy and now Blaine on his side to help him out. Kurt was just starting to feel like he was getting a handle on everything that was work related, which was good because his personal life was a mess.

He and Blaine had gone out a total of four times in the last two weeks. Two dinner's, a movie, and on one unseasonably warm day they had just taken a long walk around Central Park holding hands. Kurt couldn't be happier of how things were going. This was a chance that he was never expecting to have, and for it to actually be happening was better than he could have ever dreamed.

But there was still the fact that he didn't know 100 percent if he was actually still in love with Blaine. The confrontation with Bill had really messed his head up. When he was with Blaine, he was happy, and he smiled just because he could feel the warm pressure of Blaine's hand in his. But in the back of his mind, he just couldn't forget about what Bill had said and how true the words had been.

Maybe it really was too late for he and Blaine to ever have a real future together. What if they were just fooling themselves into thinking that they had another chance with each other? Had Blaine really hurt him so much that there was no more room in his heart for him to really ever trust Blaine?

Kurt had no answers to these questions, and they were driving him out of his mind. Sometimes at work, Kurt would just watch Blaine with sad eyes and Cathy would look at him and make a face trying to get him to smile. They hadn't talked about it anymore, but Kurt knew Cathy knew how much he was struggling. She kept talking about Greg to a minimum because Kurt knew she didn't want to upset him. But he could see the happy glow around her at all times and he couldn't be happier about it.

All of this was running through Kurt's head as he looked into his closet trying to pick out an appropriate outfit for the show tonight. It had to be something spectacular. Not only because of the show and the fact that they would be on Broadway, but he was going with Blaine and Blaine was special enough to warrant an amazing outfit.

Sighing, Kurt reached his arms up and started to pull through the hanging clothes. He had music blasting through the apartment since Rachel was already out for the night with some girls from work. He was happy for her absence, leaving him some peace as he tried to work though his jumbled emotions. Kurt let the music fill him up as he continued his search. Still, he didn't sing. Not yet. He was starting to doubt he would ever be able to again.

Trying to dispel that upsetting fact, Kurt focused more on the task at hand. This was fashion, this was Blaine. Fashion and Blaine were two things that he liked that made him happy. Tonight was not a night for sadness it was about celebrating what he had, even the theme of the show they were seeing reiterated that fact.

Smiling to himself Kurt pulled up the memory of senior year when Mr. Shue had assigned them all to sing duets again. This time he had let them make their own pairings instead of going through the whole disaster with Rachel again. He and Blaine had obviously partnered up and had decided to sing "I'll Cover You" from the very show they were going to see tonight. Kurt could still see Blaine's smile as he crooned, looking at Kurt like he was the sun while he sang. It was one of Kurt's favorite memories of the two of them.

As the memory continued in his head, Kurt was able to find the perfect outfit. He cut off the movie in his mind with a cry of happiness. What had finally jumped out at him was a mid thigh length peacoat with a double collar. It had four buttons, two rows of two and was off white. He paired it with a pair of fitted black dress pants (passing on the skintight ones, it was Broadway after all) and shiny black low heeled shoes. Under the coat he had on a white button up and a light blue vest that he hadn't done up.

He laid the clothes down flat on the bed and smiled happily. Tightening the sash on the blue bathrobe he had on he walked back into his bathroom to style the wet hair that was sticking to his forehead. Carefully he blew it dry while he added gel and hairspray, making it into the perfect poof. Several minutes later, he added a final coat of spray and nodded his head to make sure it didn't move too much.

Once his hair had passed the test, he dabbed a tiny amount of cologne on his neck. Kurt hadn't changed his cologne in the seven years that he and Blaine had been apart. And Blaine had noticed. Three of the four dates that they had been on had ended in them kissing goodnight, each time getting longer than the last. The last date had resulted in Blaine roughly yanking Kurt into his apartment by the lapels of his jacket and slamming him against the closed door.

Hands had been fisted in hair while tongues had dueled. They both just couldn't get enough of finally being able to kiss the other. Yet, something always happened to make Kurt stop and Blaine, ever the gentleman, always agreed. It felt so good to be with Blaine in that way, Kurt would even go as far as to say amazing. But the second he felt Blaine pressed against him he shut down. He wasn't ready for that yet.

However, during the few glorious minutes that they had been trying to satisfy their need for the other, Blaine had nuzzled into Kurt's neck. Kurt could remember how easily his head had titled to grant Blaine more access without him even thinking about it. And then Blaine's lips were leaving open mouthed kisses exactly on the spot he put the cologne: 'God, Kurt. You still even use the same damn cologne that drove me crazy. I love you so much.' Blaine had growled directly into his skin before digging his teeth into the spot. Kurt would never admit it, but he was a little sad when he woke up the next morning and the light mark had faded away in the night.

Running his fingers over the spot absentmindedly he smiled to himself. Kurt wished it could just be that easy, that he and Blaine could just be together in every way possible and not have any of this horrible baggage. But he knew it wouldn't be fair to either of them if he didn't figure out his feelings first. He was really starting to regret the night that he ever decided to go to Bill's apartment. Even though at the same time he was grateful for Bill who had made him see what was truly happening. Better this way than to hurt himself or Blaine even more in the future.

Deeply sighing, Kurt finally moved his fingers off of the spot. Blaine was going to be there soon and he didn't want the area to be red. He walked out of the bathroom and made his way over to the bed and started to mechanically pull the clothes on. He hoped that when Blaine arrived it would pull him out of this weird mood that he was in. Blaine always made him smile so he was counting on it.

Once dressed he walked into the kitchen to turn his music off. He longed to sing again but his vocal chords just wouldn't cooperate. The most he could get was saying the words under his breath or humming. It was closer, but it still was not enough. Kurt believed that one the day that he would be able to sing wholeheartedly, and that would be the day that he could honestly say that he was completely in love with Blaine. Until then, he was just going to have to wait and figure things out.

The sound of a knock on the door pulled Kurt out of his thoughts. Knowing it was Blaine at the door he smiled instantly. Blaine had always had that effect on him and knowing that he was just a few feet away sent Kurt's body humming with happiness. As he practically skipped to the door he shoved all of his unpleasant thoughts to the back of his mind. He could deal with them later, because right now Blaine was here and that was all that mattered.

This time when he opened the door, there was no hesitation. Kurt yanked the door open as quickly as he could. Meeting Blaine's eyes he could see the sparkle of happiness in them. It took his breath away.

"Hi," his voice breathy, betraying him.

"Hello handsome," Blaine said warmly before walking forward and wrapping his arms around Kurt.

Returning the embrace Kurt buried his face into Blaine's neck, placing a small kiss where his lips landed and breathing in deeply as he walked them backwards into his apartment. He heard the door slam behind them and then one of Blaine's hands was on his cheek, softly rubbing his thumb over the bone under Kurt's eye.

Pulling away from Blaine's neck, Kurt met his eyes again. Looking into them he saw nothing more than happiness and adoration. His heart leapt into his throat and he couldn't help but press his lips down against Blaine's. Humming softly in surprise, Blaine moved his arms from Kurt's waist to around his neck, pulling him in closer. Smiling into the kiss Kurt shuffled forward a little that way their bodies were just hardly touching.

They kissed slowly and for Kurt it felt like hours even though it couldn't have been more than a few minutes. His whole body was tingling and when Blaine gently licked along his bottom lip he didn't even have to think about opening his mouth to help him out. Blaine continued to move at the slow pace they had set. Kurt knew exactly where Blaine was going to go next and his toes curled in his shoes with just how well they still remembered each other's bodies.

Kurt whined softly when Blaine ran his tongue over a particularly sensitive area and instantly he felt Blaine's arms stiffen and suddenly the length of Blaine's body was flush against his. They hadn't been kissing for that long but he could distinctly feel Blaine's half-hard groin against him. Parts of his body were screaming for him to just pull Blaine closer and grind down, but his mind won.

"Blaine," he said, gasping as he took a step away from the shorter man. He didn't know if he had moved away fast enough or if Blaine had felt that he was in a similar state.

"God Kurt," Blaine's voice was wrecked as he dropped his forehead to Kurt's shoulder, "the sounds you make. I-I'm so sorry. I couldn't help it."

"I-It's okay, Blaine," Kurt stammered. He had half a mind to take Blaine's hand and move it so Blaine could feel exactly what the kiss had done to him, but again his mind won, "we have to get going anyway. It might be hard to get a cab tonight. And I do not want to be even the tiniest bit late."

Blaine chuckled and Kurt could feel his warm breath on his neck before he lifted his head to look into Kurt's eyes again. "Finding a cab is not going to be a problem for us tonight."

"What are you talking about?" Kurt raised an eyebrow in questioning.

"Come with me, I'll show you," Blaine said, smiling as he took Kurt's left hand in his.

"Just two seconds, I have to grab my keys and turn my iPod off." He dropped Blaine's hand and his instantly missed the warmth.

As Kurt was walking away Blaine said, "What were you listening to? You never talk about music anymore. It used to be that I couldn't get you to shut up about it."

Blushing Kurt quickly said, "Oh nothing. Just had it on shuffle, nothing special."

"Why do I feel like there's something you're not telling me?"

"It's nothing Blaine. Just drop it," Kurt knew he was snapping at Blaine but he really did not want to get into this right now. He just wanted to focus on this moment and not all of the stuff going wrong in his head.

"Okay," disappointment and hurt were clear in Blaine's answer and Kurt knew that he was letting it go for right now but that it would be brought up again in the future. Sighing, he returned to Blaine's side keys in hand.

"Ready to go?" Blaine asked, but Kurt could still hear a little bit of hurt in his voice. It made him feel a little sick, to know he was upsetting Blaine. But he would tell him, just...not yet. He wasn't ready to reveal that much of himself yet.

"One more thing. Kiss me again. Please?" Kurt knew it was weak, but he needed to know that Blaine still was there, that he still loved him even though he couldn't give all of himself to Blaine again.

"Of course," Blaine said, smiling again before slowly bringing his lips back to Kurt's. Again, they moved slowly, but all that was between them was love. It wasn't rushed and it wasn't in a lust of passion that left them both half hard and panting, it was just two people sharing their love and it was exactly what Kurt needed. Blaine always seemed to be able to give Kurt exactly what he needed.

Kurt was the one to break this kiss again, but just so he would not break down in tears. "Thank you," he whispered, his voice heavy.

"You don't have to thank me for kissing you. I'll do that anytime you want." Only adoration was radiating out of Blaine's eyes and voice again, it made Kurt's heart soar.

"Not just for that," his cheeks pinked just a little, "but just for being here. For sticking with me. Even though..." His voice stopped working, if he continued he was going to cry, as it was tears were glistening in the corners of his eyes. Why couldn't he just love Blaine back? Why was this so hard?

"Shhh, Kurt it's okay. No, please don't cry. Shh. I'll always be here, for as long as you want me. I'm not going anywhere. It's okay. We're okay. I love you, I always have and I always will." Blaine pressed his lips to the corner's of Kurt's eyes, catching the tears before they could fall.

"Blaine, I-I-ah-I-" Kurt stammered, trying to say something, anything that might make Blaine actually want to stay. Wanting so desperately to say 'Blaine, I love you,' but still not being able to.

"No Kurt. Shh. Calm down. You don't owe me any explanations or have to say anything you're not ready to. I'll still be here when you are."

Kurt smiled weakly, fresh tears back in the corners of his eyes. "I-I don't deserve you Blaine." Once again, Kurt had admitted something to Blaine before he had even been able to admit it to himself. But as soon as the words were out he knew them to be true. He was terrified that Blaine would wake up and realize this wasn't worth it, that he wasn't worth it.

Before Kurt could form another thought, Blaine was kissing him fiercely. Kurt gasped instantly from the intensity of this kiss. Blaine was kissing him like his life depended on it, it was full of hope, loss, anger, and desperation but above all love. Kurt felt like he was drowning it it, unable to catch his breath and not wanting too. He could swim and drown forever.

Blaine tore his lips away from Kurt's to whisper harshly against Kurt's mouth, "Don't you dare ever say that again Kurt Hummel. So help me God." And then Blaine's mouth once more clamped down on Kurt's again, with no less of the emotion it had had before. Blaine had Kurt's face framed between his hands and Kurt was grabbing his down Blaine's back before tugging on the hair at the nape of his neck.

This time it was Blaine to pull away first, hands still holding Kurt's face, forehead pressed against Kurt's. Their breath was mingling between the two of them and Kurt felt dizzy and drunk with it. He never would be able to give this up ever again, nobody had ever made him feel the way Blaine did.

"If I ever hear you say that again," Blaine's beautiful voice pulled Kurt out of his own head, "I cannot say as to where I will stop to convince you otherwise. Kurt, you are the most beautiful and amazing man I have ever met. Every fiber of my soul loves you. I was lucky enough once in this life to have you feel the same way about me, and dammit if I won't do it again. I can't live without you.

"You are so honest, and gentle and kind. You are one in a billion, I don't care what anyone says. You make me laugh until tears run out of my eyes and when you cry it is the most heartbreaking thing I have ever seen. When you cry I can't think of anything else but how to make it better. It makes me sick to think of tears you've cried over me. If anything I don't deserve you, Kurt. But I'm selfish enough to keep fighting for you. I'm not giving up."

"I don't want you to," Kurt choked out in a dry sob, tears burning in his eyes. "Please don't give up on me Blaine."

Blaine finally pulled his forehead off of Kurt's. Looking into the hazel green orbs Kurt could see Blaine's own tears, threatening heavily. "Never," Blaine's voice was thick, voice cracking with the unshed tears in his eyes.

Kurt pulled his hands off of Blaine's neck and ran his thumbs along the bottom of Blaine's eyes. Once he had collected all of the moisture he framed Blaine's face the way Blaine was framing his and leaned down to press a very chaste kiss onto Blaine's warm lips. Eyes closed in content Kurt lingered there for a moment before pulling away and meeting Blaine's dry eyes.

"Save your tears for when Angel dies," Kurt said softly, not wanting to cry anymore himself and knowing he would the second this beautiful and broken man standing before him started.

Smiling half-heartedly, Blaine closed his eyes and nodded. He fluttered them open again and said just as softly, "Are you ready to go?"

Kurt nodded and Blaine placed one last soft kiss to Kurt's lips before stepping back that way they could leave the apartment and Kurt could lock it behind him. Blaine opened the door and Kurt watched him from behind. The emotions he was feeling were like nothing he had ever felt before. On one hand, this was the happiest he had ever been but on the other, it was the saddest. Knowing how happy they could be together but not being able to let himself go, Kurt felt like his heart was being pulled apart, inch by inch.

There was nothing he could do but keep waiting, hoping with everything he had that Blaine wouldn't give up this fight. Kurt was really starting to believe he needed Blaine, he didn't know what he would do if he lost him now. But in this moment all Kurt could do was follow Blaine out the door and then turn around and lock it behind him.